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Verse 1
Cold white walls hum while the monitor beeps
Momma's hands folded on the bedside sheets
I count the ceiling tiles like prayers I never said
Morphine drip ticking where the good years bled
Wrote my name in pencil on the hospital chart
Typing out goodbye with a heavy heart
GNlight bleaching all the color out the room
Fading like a photograph I never got to bloom
Pre-Chorus
Time don't wait for nobody
Not even me tonight
Clock hands crawl like strangers
Through that ghost-white light
Chorus
Lying on my death bed
Kicking up the sheets
Turning every promise
Into soil underneath
Lying on my death bed
Counting every beat
Holding on to nothing
Letting go of heat
Verse 2
Scars on my knuckles from the fights I picked
Letters in a shoebox that I never mailed
Scrolling through my phone at three AM feeling sick
Wondering if the sun still counts me in its trail
My dog's old leash hangs on the closet hook
Every song I loved is a borrowed book
I'd trade a thousand gilded afternoons
For one more evening staring at the moon
Pre-Chorus
The hallway smells like antiseptic rain
Out in the waiting room
My whole life unpacks itself
Inside a quiet room
Chorus
Lying on my death bed
Kicking up the sheets
Turning every promise
Into soil underneath
Lying on my death bed
Counting every beat
Holding on to nothing
Letting go of heat
Bridge
If heaven's got a playlist I hope it plays my tape
If the mercy's endless I hope it shows my face
I wasn't perfect never claimed to be
Just a ragged breath of what I used to be
Chorus
Lying on my death bed
Kicking up the sheets
Turning every promise
Into soil underneath
Lying on my death bed
Counting every beat
Holding on to nothing
Letting go of heat
