Bedroom Lights

Verse 1

It's three in the morning

And I'm wide awake again

My room is dark

But my head won't let it end

I've been staring at the ceiling

Trying not to think too much

But every little memory

Feels heavier than it was

My phone is on my pillow

But I don't wanna press your name

I know you'll tell me that you love me

But tonight it doesn't feel the same

Pre-Chorus

And I hate that I'm like this

I hate needing someone near

I wish I could turn my thoughts off

I wish they would disappear

Chorus

So I leave my bedroom lights on

Even when I close my eyes

'Cause the dark makes everything louder

And I don't wanna hear my mind

I'm tired of saying "I'm okay"

When I'm barely getting by

So I'll sit here with the bedroom lights on

And pretend I'm doing fine

Verse 2

There's clothes across the floor

And old pictures on the wall

Half-written songs beside my bed

That I never finished at all

Everybody keeps on asking

"What's been going on with you?"

I don't know how to explain it

When I don't even know what to do

Some days I miss the person

I thought I was before

Before every little thing

Started feeling like a war

And maybe I'm just tired

Maybe I need to let myself cry

But I've gotten really good

At hiding everything inside

Pre-Chorus

I laugh when I'm supposed to

I smile when someone looks

Then I come back to my bedroom

And fall apart where no one looks

Chorus

So I leave my bedroom lights on

Even when I close my eyes

'Cause the dark makes everything louder

And I don't wanna hear my mind

I'm tired of saying "I'm okay"

When I'm barely getting by

So I'll sit here with the bedroom lights on

And pretend I'm doing fine

Verse 3

I wish I could explain

Why little things hurt so much

Why sometimes I need silence

But I still wish someone would talk

I wish I wasn't scared

Of becoming too much to love

I wish I didn't question

If I'm ever enough

And I know you're far away

But I wish you could see me now

Not the version through a screen

The one who's trying not to break down

I don't need you to fix me

I don't need the perfect words

I just need you to stay awhile

Until the worst of it passes first

Bridge

Maybe tomorrow I'll feel better

Maybe tomorrow I'll get some sleep

Maybe I'll finally believe

I'm allowed to be weak

I don't have to have the answers

I don't have to hide tonight

So I'll let myself be honest

Underneath these bedroom lights

Final Chorus

I'll leave my bedroom lights on

Until the morning fills the room

Maybe if I stay awake

The heavy feeling will move

I'm tired of saying "I'm okay"

So tonight I'll tell the truth

I'm not doing great right now

But I'm still here, and that's the truth

So I'll leave my bedroom lights on

Let them burn until sunrise

And maybe when the morning comes

I'll feel a little more alive

Outro

Three in the morning

The whole world's asleep

My bedroom lights are glowing

And I'm learning how to breathe

Maybe I don't have to be okay

Every single night

For now, I'll just stay here

Under my bedroom lights