Katniss’s feelings toward snow

I hear the rain tapping on the windowsill and I stare out and let my mind swallow me whole that's never a good thing. I get nightmares from all of my trauma I can't sleep without screaming. Innocent children were killed because of me and adults too. Ironic they called it a game cuz it's just a killing spree. He says we do it to keep the hope in the districts. How? How is killing our children bring hope. I cannot bring any other emotions in my head except fear. And no one understands no one but a few handful of people I care about and he has made sure that the people I care about are damaged beyond repair. I used to have two lovers that cared for me. President snow you have changed made them to mutts right in front of me. I will stand and say I'm the mockingjay. But inside I'm deteriorating. I cannot stand as you kill them one by one. Your paranoia is so bad you kill even ones you love. Take a look at miss lucy gray where is she now. Nobody knows but I've seen her grave buried in the meadow in 12. Ohhh I can tell by the look in your eyes you weren't always so hateful and what drew to this i don't know but I know it's unforgivable. I do not want you to die or be tortured I just want you to have a heart so you suffer the loss of otherssss. I will sing on. I will defy your capitol forever for you are a monster. You Poisen your allies when something annoys you. I wish I could you a heart so you could suffer the loss of othersss. You kill innocent children and simply replace with body doubles you force the victors to do terrible things or you'll co terrible thing to their loved ones. Well are you happy now you have no one left to care about Lucy dead tigress hates you killed Senje too. You turn and Poisen those around you. You turn on you kin and your loved ones. I hope you one day find Lucy gray in the afterlife and she sings to you I want you to grow a heart so one day you'll suffer like the rest of us do.