Still Holding On

Verse 1

Seven years old with a backpack too big

Mama worked doubles while the fridge stayed thin

I learned to lock doors before I learned to read

Learned that quiet houses hide the loudest things

Every plate that shattered was a lesson in blame

I built my whole armor out of leftover shame

Now I flinch when a door slams and I hate that I do

But the kid in that hallway is still standing in view

Pre-Chorus

So I talk to the ghost that I used to be

Tell him hold on hold on

I'm still holding on

Drop

I'm still holding on

Hold on hold on

Chorus

This is the weight I carry

This is the wound I name

I don't run from the memory

I just refuse to stay the same

Say it louder

Say it proud

I survived the silence

Now I'm speaking out loud

Post-Chorus

Out loud out loud

I'm speaking out loud

Verse 2

Sixteen with a notebook and a busted phone

Every verse was a door I could finally own

Teachers said sit still boy you're way too loud

I said the noise in my head never once sat down

I forgive her I forgive him I forgive me too

Took a decade of pages just to make it through

Now my daughter's laugh is the loudest sound

And I'll never let a slammed door take it down

Pre-Chorus

So I talk to the ghost that I used to be

Tell him hold on hold on

I'm still holding on

Drop

I'm still holding on

Hold on hold on

Chorus

This is the weight I carry

This is the wound I name

I don't run from the memory

I just refuse to stay the same

Say it louder

Say it proud

I survived the silence

Now I'm speaking out loud

Bridge

Breathe in breathe out

Name it let it out

Breathe in breathe out

I am not what happened to me

I am what I built around it

Chorus

This is the weight I carry

This is the wound I name

I don't run from the memory

I just refuse to stay the same

Say it louder

Say it proud

I survived the silence

Now I'm speaking out loud

Post-Chorus

Out loud out loud

I'm speaking out loud

Out loud out loud

Yeah I'm speaking out loud