On Replay

[Intro] Mm Mm-hmm

Oh

[Verse 1] I still know your old address

Even though I never go

Still type your name when I'm half asleep

Then remember I let you go

There's a dent beside my pillow

From the nights you used to stay

And I still leave that side untouchd

Like you'll come back for it someday

You hated when I stole your hoodie

I hated that you knew my order

You'd say, "You're thinking way too much"

Then kiss me before I'd answer

[Pre-Chorus] And I wish I could remember

The first night I felt you change

But my mind keeps picking moments

Like there's something I could've saved

[Chorus] So I replay

That night in your car

You were staring through the windshield

I was staring at your hands

You said, "We're gonna be okay"

But you didn't look at me

God, I wish I'd known right then

What I know now, what you couldn't say

I replay

Every little thing

The three seconds you went quiet

When I asked if you still loved me

I don't want you back

That's the part I can't explain

I just keep watching us fall apart

Like I can change the ending on replay

[Verse 2] You left your charger in my bedroom

For almost three months after you left

I kept telling myself I'd mail it

But I liked having proof you existed

Your mother still says "How are you?"

When she sees me at the store

And I say, "I'm doing better"

Like she doesn't know what better means

I deleted all our pictures

Except the blurry one at two

You're looking at me laughing

And I look so sure of you

[Pre-Chorus] And maybe that's the cruel part

There was no dramatic goodbye

Just little things becoming different

One ordinary night at a time

[Chorus] So I replay

That night in your car

You were staring through the windshield

I was staring at your hands

You said, "We're gonna be okay"

But you didn't look at me

God, I wish I'd known right then

What I know now, what you couldn't say

I replay

Every little thing

The three seconds you went quiet

When I asked if you still loved me

I don't want you back

That's the part I can't explain

I just keep watching us fall apart

Like I can change the ending on replay

[Bridge] Maybe if I'd said it differently

Maybe if I'd let you leave

Maybe if I wasn't so scared

Of being the one you didn't need

But I know that's not the truth

And I hate that I know it now

You didn't leave in one moment

You'd been leaving for a while

[Final Chorus] Still I replay

That night in your car

The red light on your dashboard

The rain running down the glass

You reached over for my hand

But you didn't hold it tight

And I remember thinking

"Something doesn't feel right"

I replay

And replay

Till the memory loses shape

And maybe that's how I let you go

Not by forgetting your face

But by finally watching that girl

Look at you and understand

She wasn't supposed to save the ending

She was only supposed to let it end

[Outro] So I won't replay

That night again tonight

I'll leave the picture blurry

I'll leave the charger where it lies

And for the first time

I don't need to know

Exactly when you stopped loving me

I just know

You did

And I'm finally letting the scene

Fade out