Mother's Prayers

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Woke up at 5:17, headache and a guilty mind

Mirror says I’m still a kid, eyes say I’m outta time

Heaven had a waiting list, I missed it standing in a line

Now I’m numb to every warning sign

Told you I’m a storm cloud, don’t build your home in me

I drag you through my tragedies and call it “grown in me”

Three more years I might be locked, judge throwing stones at me

Cell doors slam like they composing me

I could’ve stayed and helped her heal, I watched it fall apart

Selfish with a second chance, I chose the darker heart

Now it’s way too late for saving grace or holy starts

I tattooed regret across my arms

Pre-Chorus

This ain’t the right time for you to fall in love

I don’t know how to give enough

My lies sound good but they don’t hold

You can feel the truth beneath my tongue

**[Chorus]**

In my dark times, I go running back to the streets

Promising everything I don’t mean

In my dark times, maybe this is all I’ll be

Even my own mother would be so down in me

May her soul rest in peace

In my dark times

In my dark times

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**[Verse 1]**

Waking up at half past five, ceiling fan and blurry eyes

Dried blood on my knuckles, I don’t remember why

Heaven used to call my name, I let it ring and slide

Now the gates feel closed every time I try

Told you don’t get close to me, I poison what I touch

Three more years might be a cell instead of love

I could’ve stayed and helped her heal, but I run from trust

Selfish with a second chance, I always choose the rush

I’m my father’s habits walking, heartbreak in my veins

He dogged hearts and disappeared, I mastered that the same

Don’t be catching feelings, I’ll just break you for the thrill

Wipe the tears up off your face and act like it ain’t real

**[Pre-Chorus]**

This ain’t the right time for you to fall for me

I’m way too far gone, honestly

My lies sound sweet in harmony

But truth hits hard eventually

**[Chorus]**

In my dark times, I go running back to the streets

Promising everything I don’t mean

In my dark times, maybe this is all I’ll be

Even my own mother would be so down in me

May her soul rest in peace

In my dark times

In my dark times

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In my dark times

In my dark times

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**[Verse 2]**

Too late to pick heaven now, I watched it fade away

So give me this blunt im burn the smoke

Don’t know what im do when you got kicked out your homes

I might have some other man’s blood on my clothes

Now he gone die over the life I chose oh no no

Every bridge I ever built, I burned in one day

You see the good in me, but I don’t see it the same

So I take it out on you when I’m drowning in shame

Back to the smoke, back to the night

Back to the sins that feel so right

Back to the life where wrong feels right

And love just feels like a fight

You want a man who’s steady, someone who can stay

I’m just a ghost in your arms that slowly fades

If you join this road, you gon’ lose your way

It’ll be a while ‘fore you see brighter days

**[Pre-Chorus]**

This ain’t the right time for you to fall for me

I break what’s good eventually

You think your love could set me free

But I’m addicted to the streets

**[Chorus]**

In my dark times, I go running back to the streets

Saying all the words I don’t mean

In my dark times, this might be destiny

Only my mama still loves me for me

In my dark times

In my dark times

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**[Bridge]**

And I failed my mother, she ain’t proud of me

All them prayers she couldn’t straighten me

She still sees the child I used to be

But that boy long gone, that ain’t me

Now she most likely not resting in peace cause of me

She said, “Son, don’t walk the path your father made”

But I Ran in a shadow of that man but in a different shade

Now I know her voice will shakes every time my name get raised

And I feel the guilt… but I never change

I won’t change

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**[Final Chorus]**

In my dark times, I’ll be sliding back to the streets

Breaking every promise I speak I know you never believe the lies I lie in my sleep

In my dark times, she ain’t proud of what she sees

Only her prayers still cover me

In my dark times

In my dark times

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**[Outro]**

So when the sirens sing and the night gets cold

And I’m face down with a heart of stone

Don’t say I didn’t let you know

I warned you ‘bout my dark times

In my dark times…

In my dark times…

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