Permission

You can give me silence, I'll hear your name

You can walk away, I'll love you the same

You can build your walls up ten miles high

I'll still see the boy hiding deep inside

You don't have to promise me the moon

I stopped expecting you to come around soon

And maybe I'm a fool for holding on

But my heart don't know when enough is gone

Tell me I'm crazy, tell me I'm blind

Tell me I'm wasting my precious time

I've heard every reason I should let you go

But there's one damn thing that you need to know

I don't care if you never love me back

If I'm just a memory you never unpack

If I'm the one who cries when the night gets cold

If I'm loving a heart I'll never get to hold

I don't care if I'm the one who breaks

If loving you is my biggest mistake

You can give me nothing, you can leave me blue

I don't need your permission to keep loving you

Call me pathetic, call me a fool

I never learned how to make my heart follow rules

You can turn away, say we're never gonna be

But you can't make this feeling stop living in me

I know I can't make you feel what I feel

Can't turn a fantasy into something real

And I won't demand what you cannot give

But I'll love you in the life I don't get to live

Maybe in another world, another time

Your hand would find its way into mine

Maybe there you'd look at me and finally see

That the love you're running from was always free

So go on, tell me there's no chance

I'll still remember every almost-romance

You don't owe me a heart that's never been mine

But I can't switch mine off just to save my pride

I don't care if you never love me back

If I'm just a memory you never unpack

If I'm the one who cries when the night gets cold

Verse

Five years gone and I still know the shape

Of the space beside me where you never stayed

I learned to sleep with the light on low

Learned to love a ghost and let it go slow

Pre-Chorus

And I'm not asking for a second try

I just need you to know before I die

Chorus

I keep loving you in the worst way

The kind that burns the whole damn day

I keep loving you like a war I chose

With both my hands and a broken nose

I keep loving you till the grave gets full

Till my ribs cave in and my veins run dull

You can hate me for it, curse my name

But I'd rather burn than go out tame

Post-Chorus

Oh, oh, oh, I don't want to be saved

Oh, oh, oh, I just want to be brave

Oh, oh, oh, loving you in the dark

Oh, oh, oh, leave a permanent mark

Verse 2

I carved your initials in my own skin

Not to keep you close, just to feel something

Every scar I've got is a song I wrote

For a boy who never read a single note

Pre-Chorus

And I'm not begging on my knees

I'm just screaming what I believe

Chorus

I keep loving you in the worst way

The kind that burns the whole damn day

I keep loving you like a war I chose

With both my hands and a broken nose

I keep loving you till the grave gets full

Till my ribs cave in and my veins run dull

You can hate me for it, curse my name

But I'd rather burn than go out tame

Bridge

Break me, break me

I am not your mistake

Break me, break me

I am everything you couldn't take

Break me, break me

I will howl this till I'm dust

Break me, break me

This is love, and love don't rust

Screamo Breakdown

YOU LEFT ME NOTHING BUT THE FIRE!

AND THE FIRE IS ALL I NEED!

I DON'T WANT YOUR PITY OR YOUR SILENCE!

I JUST WANT TO WATCH IT BLEED!

Verse 3

So go ahead, live your quiet little life

Find a girl who won't cut herself with your knife

I'll be out here loud, I'll be out here wrong

Turning every heartbreak into a song

Pre-Chorus

And when you're old and your memory fades

You'll still hear my voice in the mess you made

Chorus

I keep loving you in the worst way

The kind that burns the whole damn day

I keep loving you like a war I chose

With both my hands and a broken nose

I keep loving you till the grave gets full

Till my ribs cave in and my veins run dull

You can hate me for it, curse my name

But I'd rather burn than go out tame

Guitar Solo

Bridge 2

Maybe someday I'll wake up clean

Maybe someday this won't sting

Maybe someday I'll love someone who stays

But it won't be today

No, it won't be today

Final Chorus

I kept loving you in the worst way

And I'd do it again, I'd do it the same

I kept loving you like a war I won

With a busted lip and a loaded gun

I kept loving you till my voice gave out

Till the only thing left was the scream and the shout

So hate me for it, curse my name

I loved you loud, and I'm not ashamed

Outro

(Not ashamed)

I loved you loud

(Not ashamed)

I loved you proud

(Not ashamed)

And I'd do it all again

I'd do it all again