mother, i don't deserve you (ver. 1)

i don't deserve a mother

mother, i have failed you.

there are dark pests buried deep in my heart.

i'm afraid they might crawl out and find you

i don't deserve you

i don't deserve you

i don't deserve you

i don't deserve you

turbulent webs forming in my head

don't look at me as if i'm to be treasured.

you attempt to bring wilted flowers from the dead

when you touch me so tenderly

i want to rip that part of my flesh out

they don't deserve it

i don't deserve it

i don't deserve it

i don't deserve it

i don't deserve it

i don't deserve a mother

mother, i have failed you.

there are dark pests buried deep in my heart.

i'm afraid they might crawl out and find you

i don't deserve you

i don't deserve you

i don't deserve you

i don't deserve you

scar my arms, wrap them in bandages

all these lies and all these damages

don't fix me with your sandwiches

i don't deserve it

i don't deserve you

you're blind to my black tears

i'll rid you of this burden

mother you should get rid off me

you should get rid off me

you should get rid off me

you should get rid off me