I'm an Addict, But I'm Still Alive

Intro - Spoken, Deep Male Vocal

Yeah...

Sad Starboy here again.

Reminiscing...

Hook

I'm reminiscing about the past.

About the things I've screwed up.

Wishing I could turn back time...

Wishing I could fix everything.

Verse 1-Emotional

Wishing I wasn't the person I am today

Wishing I could take those choices back

I wish I never fell into that addiction

I wish alcohol never became my prison

Now I'm an alcoholic

A pill addict, a drug addict

And sometimes I wonder

How the hell did I get here?

I'm an addict...

And I've gotta live with that

But being an addict

Doesn't mean that's all I am

Pre-Chorus - Building

Addiction doesn't define who you are

It's what happened when you were hurting in the dark

It came from the pain

It came from this cruel world

And somewhere along the way

I lost myself

Chorus - Powerful Male Vocals

I'm an addict, but I'm still alive

I'm still standing, I'm still trying to survive

six years sober and I'm still holding on

Even when the darkness tells me I'm not strong

I'm an addict, but that's not all I am

I'm still fighting, doing everything I can

I may have fallen, I may have lost my way

But I'm choosing sobriety

One more day

Verse 2 - Emotional

I was pressured into something I couldn't understand

People telling me I'd be alright

Just take my hand

My mind kept telling me

"You'll never get addicted"

"Not today, not tomorrow"

"You'll be fine, just forget it"

Well, guess what, mind?

I've got something to say

You lied to me

And you almost took my life away

You said I wouldn't become

Everything I feared

But now I'm standing here

After all these years

Pre-Chorus - Rising

My mind told me lies

But my heart knew the truth

My heart was trying to protect me

But I didn't listen to you

Solo

My heart said, "Run"

My heart said, "Leave"

But I kept falling deeper

Into everything that wasn't me

Chorus - Powerful

I'm an addict, but I'm still alive

I'm still standing, I'm still trying to survive

six years sober and I'm still holding on

Even when the darkness tells me I'm not strong

I'm an addict, but that's not all I am

I'm still fighting, doing everything I can

I may have fallen, I may have lost my way

But I'm choosing sobriety

One more day

Bridge - Stripped Down, Emotional

Some days it's harder than others

When depression floods my veins

When my mind starts going in circles

And I can't escape the pain

Solo

I don't know what to do

I don't know where to turn

I just know someday

This pain will stop hurting

And I hope...

And I pray...

That I'll make it through another day

Breakdown - Spoken

Lord...

Please save my soul.

Save my heart.

Save my mind.

Before I fade too far...

Before I disappear...

Before it's too late...

I need some help.

And I need that help now.

Somebody...

Please come take my hand.

Tell me everything's gonna be alright.

Tell me everything's gonna be okay.

Build - Emotional Male Vocal

Keep your head up...

Keep looking forward...

Don't look back.

Let everything behind you

Disappear into the past.

Don't give up.

Don't ever give up.

Don't give up hope.

Hope is what you need.

Faith is what you need.

One day at a time.

One breath at a time.

Keep going.

Final Chorus - Huge Powerful Male Vocals

I'm an addict, but I'm still alive

six years sober and I'm still fighting to survive

The darkness tried to take me

But it didn't take my soul

I found a reason to keep going

I found a reason to grow

I'm an addict, but that's not all I am

I'm a fighter, I'm a survivor

I'm becoming who I am

I may have fallen

But I got back on my feet

And every single day I'm sober

Is another victory

six years...

six years and I'm still here.

Outro - Soft, Emotional

I don't wanna throw it all away.

I wanna keep my sobriety.

I wanna keep everything I have now.

Because somehow...

After everything I've been through...

Life is amazing.

I'm still here.

And I'm not giving up.