I Hate Myself

Verse 1

I hate the dumb shit

I keep putting myself through

See every fucking warning sign

Still walk straight through

I hate how I trust

Every lying ass fool

Then act fucking shocked

When I get played like a tool

I know all my secrets

I know what I do

Every fuckup on repeat

Feels like proof I never grew

Pre-Chorus

I blame my reflection

For every goodbye

Pick myself apart

Then wonder fucking why

Maybe I'm broken

Maybe that's true

Maybe you'd hate me if you saw me like I do

Verse 2

I hate saying sorry

When I didn't do shit

Hate chasing after people

Who already fucking quit

I hate who I was

I hate what I became

Every loss gets pinned on me

Like I'm built to take the blame

I carry every failure

Like it proves I'm in the wrong

Now the hate inside my head

Sounds like your voice all along

Chorus

I hate myself

That much is true

If you knew what I know

You'd fucking hate me too

I hate my head

I hate what I do

Every fucking mirror shows what I can't lose

I hate myself

Yeah I do

But I'm starting to wonder

How much came from you

Verse 3

I hate how you crawl

Inside of my head

Make me second guess shit

Before it's even said

I hate how you control

Every breath, every move

Then call me fucking crazy

When I finally got something to prove

I hate all your guilt trips

Your little mind games too

Everything I hated in me

Got louder because of you

Maybe I'm fucked up

Yeah some of that's true

But you built half the cage

And blamed me when I couldn't move

Pre-Chorus

You made me feel small

Then called that shit love

Kept pushing me down

Then asked why I wasn't enough

I got my own demons

I got shit to undo

But I don't need your voice telling me what's true

Chorus

I hate myself

That much is true

But I'm done carrying your shit

Cause bitch, I hate you too

I hate your lies

I hate what you do

I hate the fucking version of me

I became around you

I hate myself

But here's something new

I can work on my own shit

While I'm cutting off you

Bridge

I'm still fucked up

Still got shit to undo

But these demons are mine

I don't need yours too

Still wake up some mornings hating me too

But these demons are mine

And I find what is true

I'd rather face every one than spend one more night with you

Pre-Chorus

I ain't healed

I ain't fixed

I ain't claiming I am

But at least when I hate me

That voice ain't coming from you

Chorus

I hate myself

Yeah, sometimes I still do

But I know my own damage

And I'm working it through

I hate myself

But I'm done hating for you

You don't get to control what the fuck I believe is true

I hate myself

That much is true

But I'm learning to live with me

I can fix my own shit

Cuz bitch, I hate you