Wells That Never Fill

Instrumental Intro

Verse 1

Eighteen winters and then I stopped

My body frozen where the mirror left it

Everyone I loved is underneath the ground

I still walk above it

Mother braided my hair the night before

Said grow up strong and marry kind

I outlived her prayers by several thousand years

And I never learned to die

Pre-Chorus

So I take what the evening brings me

Hold my breath and call it need

Smile like a girl who's never tasted

Anything she couldn't leave

Chorus

I am ancient I am eighteen

I am everything I swore I'd never be

I keep drinking from a well that's always dry

And I call it keeping me alive

I am ancient I am eighteen

Still the same hungry thing beneath the skin

You can't see the years inside my eyes

But you feel them when I lie

Post-Chorus

(Ooh) I don't want it

(Ooh) I still want it

(Ooh) I don't want it

But I want it every night

Verse 2

I was tender once before the turning

Before the threshold took my name

Now I've buried every version of the girl

Who would've walked away in shame

I collect the ones who glow like I once did

I tell myself I'm being kind

Then I leave them pale and quiet on the doorstep

And I never look behind

Pre-Chorus

Cause I need what the midnight offers

Need it sharper than a prayer

And I swear I'll quit it in the morning

Every morning I'm still here

Chorus

I am ancient I am eighteen

I am everything I swore I'd never be

I keep drinking from a well that's always dry

And I call it keeping me alive

I am ancient I am eighteen

Still the same hungry thing beneath the skin

You can't see the years inside my eyes

But you feel them when I lie

Bridge

I could stop I could stop I could stop

If the stopping didn't feel like dying twice

I could be someone gentle someone new

If the mirror didn't know me by my eyes

Holy water never burned me

It just made me want to try

Something softer something cleaner

Something that would let me cry

Breakdown

Centuries of practice being fine

Centuries of smiling through the feed

I am the oldest child that ever learned

To hide what it would need

Chorus

I am ancient I am eighteen

I am everything I swore I'd never be

I keep drinking from a well that's always dry

And I call it keeping me alive

I am ancient I am eighteen

Still the same hungry thing beneath the skin

You can't see the years inside my eyes

But you feel them when I lie

Post-Chorus

(Ooh) I don't want it

(Ooh) I still want it

(Ooh) I don't want it

But I want it every night