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Don't Mistake my Silence

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Don't Mistake My Silence A piano confession that grows into something with its shoulders back. Some men go loud. Some men go quiet. The quiet ones are often doing the hardest work in the room and nobody can see it. This is a husband explaining that the stillness was never indifference, it was a man trying not to make a hard night harder, and admitting that the hiding cost them both. No accusation lives in this song. Only the confession, and then the turn: her softness opened a door, and he walked through it. Rabbana hab lana min azwajina qurrata a'yun.

Lyrics

Intro - solo piano, spoken very softly

There's something I've never said right.

Let me try it in a song instead.

Verse 1 - piano only

There were nights I had the words standing right at my teeth

And I swallowed every one of them to keep the evening sweet

You thought I didn't feel it, you thought I'd gone away

I was standing in the hallway, learning how to stay

Verse 2 - piano, light bass enters

I was never cold, habibti, I was only holding on

Counting to a hundred so the moment wouldn't turn

And I know that looked like distance, I know that looked like stone

But a man holding his breath is not a man who's gone

Chorus - full, warm, soul-pop

Don't mistake my silence for the absence of love

I was holding back words when the moment got rough

Trying not to answer fire with fire of my own

But hiding from the thunder left us both alone

Post-Chorus

Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah

For the softer week, for the gentler start

Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah

For a door that opened in my own heart

Verse 3

Call me with kindness, and I'll answer as me

Not a careful little shadow of who I used to be

I don't need perfection; I just need somewhere

My heart can tell the truth without trembling there

Chorus

Don't mistake my silence for the absence of love

I was holding back words when the moment got rough

Trying not to answer fire with fire of my own

But hiding from the thunder left us both alone

Bridge - the romantic turn, build

I miss making you laugh without watching each step

I miss giving you pieces of me I've protected

And lately your softness is opening the door

To the husband who still wants to love you more

Bridge 2 - quieter, almost spoken

Mon silence n'etait jamais l'absence

C'etait la peur de faire plus mal

My silence was never an absence

It was fear of making it worse

Final Chorus - lifted, joyful, still not loud

So don't mistake my silence for the absence of love

I'm learning how to speak now the moment isn't rough

You called me with kindness and I answered as me

Not a shadow in the hallway - the man you used to see

Not a shadow in the hallway - the man I want to be

Outro - piano alone, spoken

Rabbana hab lana min azwajina qurrata a'yun.

Our Lord, grant us joy in our spouses.

I'm still here, Maimouna.

I never wasn't.

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