I Thought It Through .

Intro

Mm

Yeah

Fifteen years old

Fifteen and folding [Verse 1]

Fifteen years old and my back still stings

Counted every swing like a clock on the wall

Nobody asks about the police momma never called

Nobody asks anything at all

I mapped out the creek past the ridge past the pines

Dug a hole deep enough to hide his body that no one would ever find

Planned it quiet planned it slow planned it right

Then I sat in that dirt and I couldn't do it it's not right, [Chorus]

I thought it through

What I should do to you

That's the only reason you're still standing here

I thought it through

Lucky ain't the word for you, Wrote your name on a page then I tore it in half

Half of me wanted the worst for you

Other half wanted my mom to keep a son

So I buried the plan not to hurt you

Creek water cold on my hands on my knees

Fifteen and holding a whole lot of hate

You get to wake up you get to breathe

I get to carry the weight [Chorus]

I thought it through

I thought it through

That's the only reason you're still standing here

I thought it through

I thought it through

Lucky ain't the word for what you are

Bridge

Not mercy

Not love

Not forgiveness

Just math

Just a boy who did the numbers and walked away

Chorus

I thought it through

I thought it through

That's the only reason you're still standing here

I thought it through

I thought it through

Lucky ain't the word for what you are

Outro

Fifteen

Still here

Both of us

Barely