A Hundred Versions of You (Replaced 1)

Verse 1

Forty-six years before you found me

I thought I knew what lonely meant

Then you thanked God that you had found me

And I could finally catch my breath

Coffee mornings, midnight cheesecake

Your hand reaching over mine

I was still watching you sleep beside me

When you were leaving in your mind October's at the window

But the calendar says July

I keep going back through everything

For the moment we said goodbye

Chorus

I never needed a brand-new backyard

I needed you when life got hard

My favorite face, my first phone call

The one I wanted through it all

Now I hate the way you hurt me

And I miss you in the same breath

How do I say goodbye to my best friend

With so much that we never [Verse 2]

Jessie's waiting by the doorway

I don't know what to tell her yet

I can wipe away the dust around us

But this house still won't forget

I held your sock above the laundry

Like it might explain where you'd gone

Then found that white stone in my ring dish

And heard you laughing with your "tooth" gone [Pre-Chorus]

I remembered how I answered

What another bill would do

Even in that little moment

I can hear what we were going through

Chorus

I never needed a brand-new backyard

I needed you when life got hard

My favorite face, my first phone call

The one I wanted through it all

Now I hate the way you hurt me

And I miss you in the same breath

How do I say goodbye to my best friend

With so much that we never You said "Pop-Pop," I said "Mom-Mom"

Like those years were ours to keep

I saw us laughing, growing older

Now that future visits in my sleep

My birthday passed without the candles

Our anniversary came and went

The air felt just like when I met you

I never dreamed that this was next

Bridge — stripped back

I call up every time you vanished

Every promise you let fall

Try to find enough anger

To stop missing you at all

Then I see the way you'd soften

When you pulled me close again

And I'm back to wanting to protect you

From a hurt I couldn't mend

You could've said, "I don't understand it

But the love I gave was true"

I could've held an honest answer

Now I hold a hundred versions of you

Final Chorus — build

I you

never needed a brand-new backyard

I needed you when life got hard

I wanted you beside me

While we figured out the rest

I thought we'd have the time to learn

The things we hadn't learned yet

And I hate what happened to us

But I don't wish pain on you

I just wish I knew what happened

To the man I thought I knew [Outro — piano alone]

There was a woman here who loved you

Who was hopeful, warm and bright

I'm afraid I won't find her again

I would love to be wrong this time

We could've had a beautiful life

I still believe we could

I never got to say goodbye

To my best friend...

I wish you understood