Where Did We F It Up?

Verse 1

Started like a film, mate, pure, no conditions

Everlasting, said it out loud, like the sky was listening

City lights on wet roads, your hand inside my jacket

Perfect in the flaws, every flaw was a habit

So I rewind it, hunt it, look for where the crack began

Was it that night in March when we both said "never mind"?

Two people, arms folded, walking home in line

Not a fight, not a war, just a door we left unlocked

And a draught coming through that neither of us blocked

Chorus

So tell me, darling, where did we fuck it up?

Was it you, was it me, was it us?

Was it ever enough?

It was perfect even in the cracks

So tell me, where did we fuck it up?

Verse 2

I asked for change, I asked it plain, more than once or twice

You went defensive every time, wall up, cold as ice

Never once opened up to me, every word became a fight, mate

Meanwhile I'm on the balcony, lighter clicking, midnight

Couldn't quit the smoking, said I'd try and then I didn't

Loved you the one way that I knew, thought that was the whole of it

You said you needed other ways, I heard it as complaining

Had no language for it yet, so I stayed the same, still waiting

Chorus

So tell me, darling, where did we fuck it up?

Was it you, was it me, was it us?

Was it ever enough?

It was perfect even in the cracks

So tell me, where did we fuck it up?

Verse 3

Three times you ended it, mate, three times, count them

Twice you came back crying, and I opened up, no doubt then

Took you back like nothing happened, thinking this time's different

Silly me, right?

Thinking love alone would do it.

Thinking you'd walk back through that door

and the same two hands

would build something different.

Silly me.

Hoping that you'd fucking try, waiting for it in your actions

Felt like you didn't, maybe you did, maybe small, in little fractions

A text, a tea, a "you ok?", the things I couldn't read

Hidden in the ordinary, and I looked right past it, see

Third time, final. No tears, no knock, no door

Just a quiet kind of ending that we'd rehearsed before

Bridge

Maybe you tried.

Maybe it came in small things

I was too loud to notice.

Maybe there was no day.

Just a hundred small ones

we both walked past.

Verse 4

After the third one, flat went quiet, mate, I never knew

Arguments took up that much room till they were through

Your name sat on my screen for weeks, thumb hovering

Pride said don't, the old me said you're still the only thing

Told my mates I'm good, they nodded, didn't ask

Late-night loops of every scene, rewinding all the past

Every "it's fine" and every "leave it", every wall

Played it back so many times I lost the sound of it all

Verse 5

So here's what I've got after all the replaying

You weren't the villain, mate, and I wasn't saying

All the right things in the right way, you needed more

Loved you the one way that I knew, but love has more than one door

Maybe you were guarded 'cause you'd learnt to live that way

And I was deaf 'cause nobody taught me what to say

Two people, both half ready, both holding on too tight

Calling it a fight for love when it was only fight

I'm over it now, I laugh, I sleep, I eat

But some nights on the night bus, window cold on my seat

I still go looking for the day I can't find the place