Random Weight

Verse 1

I stare at the screen on my bed in the dark.

My head is so heavy, a cold little spark.

You type in short letters, a period, a space.

I look at my phone with a panic-struck face.

Is that a cold dot? Did I say something wrong?

Why does every small silence feel seven hours long?

Chorus

Oh, I am a weight that you carry around.

A shadow that sinks to the wet chilly ground.

I need too much comfort, I need too much care,

Just begging for love that is thin in the air.

And I am too hard and I am too deep,

The monster that keeps you awake and won't sleep.

Verse 2

There's her on your feed with the sun in her hair.

She laughs at the ceiling without any care.

She takes what you give her and thinks it is gold,

While I turn your warmth to a shiver of cold.

She's easy to please, like a breeze in the spring,

And I am the storm that breaks everything.

Chorus

Oh, I am a weight that you carry around.

A shadow that sinks to the wet chilly ground.

I need too much comfort, I need too much care,

Just begging for love that is thin in the air.

And I am too hard and I am too deep,

The monster that keeps you awake and won't sleep.

Bridge

She waits for your text and she reads how you type.

She likes every comma, she loves every stripe.

No doubt in her mind, no fog in her brain,

She doesn't look twice at a ghost in the rain.

While I count the seconds and choke on my mind,

Hoping a broken old heart can be kind.

Outro

Just a period. A dot. And a lowercase start.

I'm tearing the ink right out of my heart.

She's pretty. She's simple. She's right where you stay.

And I'm just too much, so I'm fading away.