Ashes & Oath - Not Okay

Verse 1

Alarm rings, I hit ignore

Pile of clothes across my floor

Wake up tired, nothing’s new

Mirror says, what will today do

Parents knock, say I’ve changed

Guess I’m just a little strange

Drag my shoes, skipping meals

Wish I could explain how I feel

Chorus

I’m not okay, but I’ll say I’m fine

Sleep in my clothes, wasting all my time

Heavy head and a plastic smile

Can’t fake it, can’t fake it, not for a while

Post-Chorus

Whoa-oh, whoa-oh

Whoa-oh, whoa-oh

Verse 2

Bleach my hair, pretend I care

Tripping on thoughts that go nowhere

Lost another friend last week

Yeah, it hurts, I can barely speak

Pre-Chorus

Tell myself it’s just a phase

Self-doubt carves up my days

Looking for a way to escape

But every door feels locked and fake

Chorus

I’m not okay, but I’ll say I’m fine

Sleep in my clothes, wasting all my time

Heavy head and a plastic smile

Can’t fake it, can’t fake it, not for a while

Post-Chorus

Whoa-oh, whoa-oh

Whoa-oh, whoa-oh

Bridge

Staring at my ceiling late at night

Counting cracks instead of sheep

It’s getting harder to fight

These secrets I keep, buried so deep

Verse 3

Phone’s blown up with empty words

Can’t relate, it just makes it worse

Try to laugh, but the sound won’t come

Wonder if I’ll always feel so numb

Chorus

I’m not okay, but I’ll say I’m fine

Sleep in my clothes, wasting all my time

Heavy head and a plastic smile

Can’t fake it, can’t fake it, not for a while

Post-Chorus

Whoa-oh, whoa-oh

Whoa-oh, whoa-oh

Outro

Sun comes up, paint peels off my wall

Same old thoughts, I dodge their call

Maybe tomorrow I’ll feel less stuck

Or maybe this is just my luck

Whoa-oh, whoa-oh

Another day, but I feel the same

Whoa-oh, whoa-oh

Still searching for someone to blame