Benoit

Intro

My family

Where are they

Oh

I'm losing my mind

Verse 1

Friday evening closed the office door and tied the knots so tight

Bound her wrists and ankles in the silence of the fading light

Strangled every syllable of reason till her breathing stopped

Suffocated everything we built inside that room and dropped

The picture perfect portrait of a marriage turning into rot

I hear the telephone receiver and I swear I feel her thoughts

Verse 2

Saturday I carried Daniel to his bed with Xanax dim

Kissed his forehead knowing that the curtains closing over him

Smothered every future that his seven years had promised me

Wrapped the blanket tighter while he slept so peacefully

Texted all my coworkers about some poison in the kitchen

Told another lie while both their bodies started stiffening

Bridge

Sunday morning I arranged the Bibles by their resting heads

Opened up the lat pulldown in the room where I once bled

Sixty-one and twenty-two and seven all accounted for

One more number coming and I cannot take it anymore

Verse 3

Weight room cables overhead become the ending of my road

Rope around the neck to carry every burden that I owed

Forty-year-old muscle tearing through the final descent

Doctors later find the damage that the years of wrestling lent

Eighty-five-year-old Alzheimer's trapped inside a forty frame

Every diagnosis afterward is adding to the shame

Bibles next to Nancy and the boy I could not save

Fayetteville detectives catalogued the horror that I gave

Outro

My family

Where are they

Oh

I'm losing my mind