Spin the Block

"Ghost Ride"

Verse 1

They took my brother off the block, now the block don't feel the same

Empty spot where he used to stand, still be calling out his name

Can't sleep right, every siren got me reaching for the steel

Doc said it's PTSD, said it's trauma that I feel

But he ain't never lost nobody, he don't know the weight I hold

Every night I'm reliving it, watching how the story told

Spinning through the same four blocks where they took him from this earth

Chopper on my lap, riding low, calculating what he worth

Loyalty over everything, that's the code we always ran

Now I gotta be the one to finish what the other man began

Hook

Spinning the block wit the chop on my lap

Ghost of my brother riding shotgun, watching my back

Eye don't close at night, mind stuck on that

PTSD got me jumping at every little sound, every crack

Lonely in a crowd, lonely in the trap

Revenge don't bring him back but I can't take that off my chest

Spinning the block, spinning the block, can't rest

Set on my chest, pain on my chest

Verse 2

Therapy ain't built for n****s coming from where I'm from

Where you bury your emotions and you bury your homies young

Flashbacks hit like clockwork, hear the shots in my dreams

See his face right before it, hear him calling out to me

Couldn't save him, couldn't stop it, that's the guilt I carry deep

Now it's loneliness beside me every second, every week

'Cause the ones who understand me either locked up or deceased

And the ones who claim they with me only there to catch a piece

I don't trust the therapy, I don't trust the pills they give

I just trust the block, the strap, and the way I chose to live

Even though it's killing me the same way it killed him

Caught up in a cycle that was never built to win

Hook

Spinning the block wit the chop on my lap

Ghost of my brother riding shotgun, watching my back

Eye don't close at night, mind stuck on that

PTSD got me jumping at every little sound, every crack

Lonely in a crowd, lonely in the trap

Revenge don't bring him back but I can't take that off my chest

Verse 3

Late night I be talking to him like he still could hear me talk

Tell him how I miss him every time I'm on the block

Tell him I ain't scared to die, scared of living with this pain

Scared this cycle take my son the way it took my brother's name

Some nights the anger wins, some nights I just cry instead

Grief and vengeance sleeping in the same spot in my head

Ain't no therapy for losing what a brother used to be

Just this pen, just this pain, just this melody

Maybe getting back won't fix the hole that's in my chest

Maybe all it does is add more weight I gotta carry, more unrest

Outro

Still spinning the block... still hear his voice...

Grief got me lonely... trauma got no choice...

Rest easy, bro... I got you... 'til it's over...