Already Dead

Intro

Yeah

I don't know

I don't know what happened to me

Verse 1

I wake up every morning like I'm supposed to

Same room, same walls, same shit I go through

Everybody asks me if I'm doing okay

I say "yeah" 'cause what the fuck am I supposed to say?

I don't wanna talk, I don't wanna explain

I'm getting real good at pretending I'm sane

I look in the mirror, don't know who's looking back

Feels like I lost myself and never got back

I used to care about everything

Now nothing really gets to me

People say I'm different

Maybe that's what they needed me to be

I've been disappearing in front of everybody

And nobody noticed 'til I stopped saying sorry

I don't blame you, I just wish you would've seen

The person that I was before I stopped being me

Hook

They keep asking me what's wrong, I don't know

I've been feeling like a ghost in my own home

Everybody sees me breathing, that's all

Truth is, I think I've been gone for so long

Don't tell me I'm okay, I already know

Don't tell me it'll pass, I've heard that before

If you knew how long I've felt this way

You'd understand why I say I'm already dead

Verse 2

I laugh when I'm supposed to, cry when I'm alone

Keep my problems in my head, never bring 'em home

I've gotten so used to feeling out of place

That being comfortable just feels strange

I don't miss who I was, I barely know him

Sometimes I remember him and wish I could show him

Everything he's gonna lose trying to keep everybody

Everything he's gonna hide just to make them happy

Now I'm watching all my memories from a distance

Like somebody else's life that I happened to witness

I got people that love me, I know that they do

But sometimes being loved doesn't fix what it can't get through

And I hate when they say "you've changed"

Like I woke up one day and decided to break

I was asking for help in ways nobody heard

So I stopped asking questions and swallowed my words

Hook

They keep asking me what's wrong, I don't know

I've been feeling like a ghost in my own home

Everybody sees me breathing, that's all

Truth is, I think I've been gone for so long

Don't tell me I'm okay, I already know

Don't tell me it'll pass, I've heard that before

If you knew how long I've felt this way

You'd understand why I say I'm already dead

Bridge

Maybe I'm not gone

Maybe I'm just tired

Maybe there's a part of me

I haven't found yet

Maybe all this numbness

Isn't where my story ends

Maybe I don't need to be

Who I was again

Final Hook

They keep asking me what's wrong, I don't know

I've been feeling like a ghost in my own home

Everybody sees me breathing, that's all

But maybe being numb doesn't mean I'm gone

Don't tell me I'm okay, I don't need that

Don't tell me who I was, I can't go back

I don't know what comes next

But I'm still here somehow

Maybe I ain't already dead

Maybe I'm just trying to figure it out