Lyrics
[Intro]
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[Verse 1]
I been sitting in this hallway for a week now
Same four walls, same fluorescent hum
Everyone walks past and smiles like they mean it
But the eyes don't move, the eyes never move
I pour a glass and watch the ceiling fan
Count the rotations 'til I lose the thread
Someone text me "you good?" at 2 a.m.
I typed back "yeah" and felt my jaw go tight
[Pre-Chorus]
And I don't even know what I'm waiting for
A door, a sign, a voice that doesn't rehearse
I keep checking under the words
For something that isn't performed
[Chorus]
I'm in the in-between
Not gone, not here, not anything
Everybody's got a script and I forgot my lines
So I just stand in the grey
Where nothing's warm and nothing's cold
Just flat, just flat, just flat
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[Verse 2]
She said "I love you" like she read it off a card
He gripped my hand and I felt the calculation
I used to flinch, now I just nod along
Take the plate, eat the food, say "thank you"
There's a whole city full of open mouths
And not one sentence that lands on the bone
I scroll through names I used to call at 4
And wonder which version of me they're still talking to
[Pre-Chorus]
'Cause I don't know what to expect no more
A knife, a hug, they come in the same hand
I stopped reading the room
'Cause the room keeps changing the locks
[Chorus]
I'm in the in-between
Not gone, not here, not anything
Everybody's got a script and I forgot my lines
So I just stand in the grey
Where nothing's warm and nothing's cold
Just flat, just flat, just flat
[Bridge]
And maybe I'm the problem, yeah
Maybe I flattened everything myself
Made the whole world a waiting room
'Cause it's easier than walking out the door
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But God, I'm tired of the performance
Tired of guessing which "I'm fine" is real
Tired of being polite to the hollow
Tired, tired, tired
[Outro]
Still in the hallway
Fluorescent hum
Someone's laughing down the corridor
And it almost sounds honest
Almost
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