Paranoia

Verse 1

Struggling to see what's right from wrong

So I picked up my notes and I wrote this song

Will you always be there, or wake up and be gone?

We lose a season, then we find where we belong

Verse 2

If you're here for me, I'll be here for you

Sometimes my head gets ahead of the truth

I know that I make things harder than they need to be

I'm fighting with my mind, not with you and me

Pre-Chorus

And I know it's not fair when I let my fears show

I just need you to know there's a side you don't know

I'm trying to change, trying to find my way through

'Cause the last thing I want is to lose me and you

Chorus

I get paranoia

My mind won't let me rest

I get toxic thoughts

That won't leave my head

I get mind racing

Is every day a test?

I'm sorry if my worries

Put our love through stress

I don't wanna doubt you

I don't wanna make you blue

Sometimes I fight a battle

That has nothing to do with you

I get paranoia

But I'm trying to get through

I'm sorry for the times

That my fears get in the way of you

Verse 3

Head spinning, I become outspoken

Words come out before my heart is open

Hot and cold, sometimes up and down

Fighting all the thoughts that keep on coming round

Verse 4

I know you, and I hope you know me

There's a side of myself I don't want you to see

I'm sorry for the hurt when my fears take control

I'm learning how to speak what's buried in my soul

Pre-Chorus

And I know that love shouldn't feel like a fight

I don't wanna turn the wrong thoughts into real life

I'm trying to trust, trying to let myself breathe

And believe in the love that you're giving to me

Chorus

I get paranoia

My mind won't let me rest

I get toxic thoughts

That won't leave my head

I get mind racing

Is every day a test?

I'm sorry if my worries

Put our love through stress

I don't wanna doubt you

I don't wanna make you blue

Sometimes I fight a battle

That has nothing to do with you

I get paranoia

But I'm trying to get through

I'm sorry for the times

That my fears get in the way of you

Bridge

From struggle to cuddles

And all that's in between

Through the good times and the bad

You've still been here with me

And if my mind gets lost

And the clouds come rolling through

Please know beneath the noise

I'm still choosing you

I can't promise I'll be perfect

But I promise I'll try

To stop letting all my fears

Speak louder than what's right

Chorus

I get paranoia

My mind won't let me rest

I get toxic thoughts

That put our love to the test

I get mind racing

But I'm learning to breathe

And I'm sorry for the times

That I made it hard to see

I don't wanna doubt you

I just wanna love you right

I wanna be your peace

Not the reason that we fight

I get paranoia

But there's one thing that's true

Through the noise inside my head

I'm still choosing you

Outro

I'm still choosing you

Even when my mind's not telling me to

I'm sorry for the things

That my fears put us through

I'm still choosing you

And I hope you know it's true

I'm learning how to love

Without letting fear speak for me and you