Tired

Verse 1

Late night rattlin through the valley low

Headlights flicker on this lonely road

Every morning wake up feelin like a man gone

Steady on my back weighin like a ton

Smile at the homies but the smile don't reach

Inside of me a vacancy I can't patch

Every day a battle that I'm losin slow

Tired of pretendin that I'm fine you know

Verse 2

Look in the mirror see a stranger stare back

Who the fuck is that nigga starin through the glass

Used to have a dream now it's just a habit

Countin every breath like I'm savin up for nothin

Momma think I'm strong so I hold the pieces

But the crack is showin through the seams I'm bleedin

Nobody to call when the thoughts get heavy

So I sit alone and let the silence tell me

Verse 3

Rollin through the streets where I used to run

Every corner got a memory of the war we won

But the win don't matter when the soul is gone

Fuck the money fuck the fame that shit don't last long

Gotta keep the mask so the homies can't see

That the mothafucka on the inside is barely me

Laugh at the jokes but I'm dyin slow inside

This a nigga with a pulse but no reason to ride

Verse 4

Life's a bitch and I been fuckin with her too long

Every good thing comes around then it's gone

Stacked the paper built the name made the moves

But the hollow in my chest keep playin me for a fool

Drank the pain till it turned into a habit

Smoked the hurt till my lungs got to coughin

Feel like every dawn just another chapter

Where the mothafuckin plot keep gettin darker

Verse 5

Used to pray to God now I just stare at the ceiling

Talkin to myself cause ain't nobody feelin

What it's like to carry weight you can't hand off

To a brother who pretendin that he all soft

Ha ha keep it movin keep the laughter loud

But the quiet when I'm solo got me shoutin out

Fuck this mental spiral fuck this tired game

Wish I could rewind and burn the whole damn frame

Verse 6

Sleep don't come when the mind won't shut down

Every tick of the clock is another countdown

Layin in the dark with the thoughts on repeat

Wonder if the mornin's got a guarantee

My niggas say I'm solid but they don't really know

The mothafucka in the mirror is the real foe

Tired of the fight I been fightin all my life

Tired of the knife twistin lodged in my side

Verse 7

Drive down to the water watch the waves come in

Wonder if the deep end knows my name as a friend

But I can't do that to the ones that love me

So I grip the wheel and keep on drivin ugly

Breathe in breathe out that's the only way

One more sunrise maybe I survive today

Ain't no answers in the flask and the smoke

Just a tired-ass man who can't let it go

Verse 8

Talkin to my shadow but the shadow don't speak

Jus a nigga out here lookin for a reason to eat

Every plate full but I ain't got the hunger

Numbed out the senses made the pain feel younger

Used to have the heart used to have the drive

Now I'm goin through motions just to stay alive

Fuck the legacy they built on my back

Fuck the bullshit that they call a life track

Verse 9

Wonder if they'll miss me when I'm in the ground

Or just play my records when the sun goes down

Probably both but it don't even matter

Ridin through the storm with the windows shattered

Piece by piece I been fallin apart

But the world only sees the front and the heart

Late night scream but the walls hear it all

A mothafucka on his knees waitin for the fall

Verse 10

Yea I said it all now I'm thinkin bout the end

Ain't no more pretendin that we gon' win again

Every day is darker than the one before

Every reason I hold on is behind that door

But I flick the lighter let the smoke curl high

Cause a born fighter gotta fake till he die

That's the code that the streets put on my chest

Lay me down easy when it's time to rest