LOST MYSELF

Intro – quiet dorm ambience, distant chatter, soft rain

(whispered)

Lights out… but my mind still loud…

They say I’m okay now…

So why don’t I feel found?

Verse 1 – soft, confessional rap

Woke up to a bell, not a dream, not a choice,

Same four walls, but I don’t hear my voice,

Room full of people, still I felt alone,

Had to learn how to cry with a silent tone.

They laughed, I smiled like I fit right in,

But inside my chest was a war I can’t win,

Every little joke felt sharp, not light,

So I folded myself just to make it through nights.

Tried to be strong like they told me to be,

But “strong” just meant nobody noticed me,

Now I’m out, they say, “you made it through,”

So why do I feel like somebody new?

Pre-Chorus – emotional, hesitant lift

I look in the mirror… don’t know that face,

Every step forward feels out of place…

Trying to breathe, but I still feel stuck…

Am I healing… or just out of luck?

Chorus – K-pop style, haunting + catchy

I think I lost myself somewhere in the dark

Left my heart in a place I can’t restart

웃고 있는데, I don’t feel okay

(I’m smiling, but I don’t feel okay)

Pieces of me just drifted away…

Oh-oh-oh, can you hear me calling?

Oh-oh-oh, feel my world still falling…

Even now that I’ve come this far—

I don’t know who I really are.

Verse 2 – slightly faster, more frustration

They say, “you’re free now,” I nod, I pretend,

But I don’t even know how to just be a friend,

Every small thing got me overthinking,

Every quiet moment feels like I’m sinking.

I forgot what I liked, what I used to do,

Every memory feels like it’s split in two,

Who I was there, who I am right now,

I don’t recognize either—I don’t know how.

8th grade, but I feel too old,

Carrying stories I never told,

And I laugh sometimes, yeah, it looks real,

But I’m still learning how to feel.

Pre-Chorus – stronger, but fragile

If I’m okay, why do I still break?

Why does healing feel so fake?

They say time will make it right…

So why am I scared every night?

Chorus – bigger, emotional release

I think I lost myself somewhere in the dark

Left my heart in a place I can’t restart

웃고 있는데, I don’t feel okay

Pieces of me just drifted away…

Oh-oh-oh, can you hear me calling?

Oh-oh-oh, feel my world still falling…

Even now that I’ve come this far—

I don’t know who I really are.

Bridge – soft, vulnerable, almost spoken

(music strips back — piano + faint hum)

Maybe I’m not broken…

Maybe I’m just changing…

But why does it hurt like this?

Why does “better” feel like this?

(small pause)

If I lost myself…

Can I find me again?

Final Chorus – gentle hope mixed with sadness

I think I lost myself… but I’m still here

Learning how to face my fear

울고 있어도, I’ll try to stay

(Even if I cry, I’ll try to stay)

Maybe I’ll find me one day…

Oh-oh-oh, hear my heart still beating

Oh-oh-oh, even when I’m breaking…

Even lost, I’ve come this far—

Maybe that’s who I really are.

Outro – soft rain fades, deep breath

(whispered)

I’m still here…

I’m still trying…

Maybe that’s enough… for now.