Lyrics
[Verse 1] Anatomy of an endless autumn, equations carved in frost
Counting up the currency of everything I lost
The calendar’s a tyrant dictating what I should feel
While the thermometer confesses what is real
Outside, the external machine keeps running on gold
A thriving demographic that I never could hold
Instead, I sit inside this room of manufactured chill
Swallowing the apathy, swallowing the pill
Of knowing that the season isn't passing me by
It’s anchored to the marrow, it’s living in my eye.
[Chorus] Not feeling it today at fucking all
(Not at all)
Woke up feeling like fuck it, fuck all
(Fuck it all)
Not feeling it today at fucking all
(Not at all)
Woke up feeling like fuck it, fuck all
(Fuck it all)
Need to get away
Up in my head (in my head), it's a little dark right now (right now)
But I'll dig in and figure it all out myself
But for right now...
Fuck off!
[Verse 2] Yeah, look at them walk past, smiling through the screen
Like actors in a movie where I shouldn't be seen
They talk about the warmth like a myth from a book
I search my internal landscape, turning every look
Into a vacant parking lot of ash and debris
Where sensory enjoyment is a stranger to me
The melody is muffled through a wall of wet mud
The flavor is absent, the rhythm is dud
I used to feel the current, now I’m tethered to stone
Sitting in the quiet, completely alone.
[Chorus] Not feeling it today at fucking all
(Not at all)
Woke up feeling like fuck it, fuck all
(Fuck it all)
Not feeling it today at fucking all
(Not at all)
Woke up feeling like fuck it, fuck all
(Fuck it all)
Need to get away
Up in my head (in my head), it's a little dark right now (right now)
But I'll dig in and figure it all out myself
But for right now...
Fuck off!
[Bridge] Is it psychological? Is it atmospheric?
The drop in the temperature is turning me delirious!
We package our trauma in a narrative neat
While the snow keeps piling right under my feet!
You want me to recover? You want me to bloom?
There is no sunlight inside of this tomb!
[Chorus] Not feeling it today at fucking all
(Not at all)
Woke up feeling like fuck it, fuck all
(Fuck it all)
Not feeling it today at fucking all
(Not at all)
Woke up feeling like fuck it, fuck all
(Fuck it all)
Need to get away
Up in my head (in my head), it's a little dark right now (right now)
But I'll dig in and figure it all out myself
But for right now...
Fuck off!