Staring at the wall

Verse 1)

Concrete walls and cold white paint,

Mom acts just like a saint.

Sixteen years old staring at the drywall,

Standing still, missing every single call.

You found it in my backpack pocket,

Told the judge to go ahead and lock it.

Shut the socket, grounding me for two whole winters,

Watch the family ties turn into splinters.

Left my brain inside a dark cage,

Turning every single thought to bitter rage.

Chorus

Mom, why you acting so crazy?

Vision of the future getting hazy.

No phone for a thousand days,

Trapped in all your twisted ways.

I am sixteen years old,

Still doing exactly what I am told.

Stuck on the wall, wait for the fall,

Stuck on the wall, watch it all fall.

Post-Chorus

Just yelling,

Always yelling,

Keeps on yelling,

No peace at all.

Verse 2

I met a girl with eyes like summer,

Told her life is such a total bummer.

Mom says I can’t have a lover,

Got me running back for cover.

She hates to see me happy or breathing,

Got me sitting in the corner seething.

You raise your hand like it is a weapon,

Better watch where you are steppin'.

Fists flying when the temper flares up,

Fill another bitter, broken cup.

Hit me hard then you call me your son?

Thought that we were finally done.

Bridge

Xavier is tired of the bruising,

Xavier is tired of the losing.

Xavier is tired of the yelling,

No one sees the story I am telling.

Get off my back, stop the attack,

Leave me alone, give me my throne,

Give me my life back.

Verse 3

You say you're protecting, but who are you saving?

Just look at the path and the road that you're paving.

Control isn't love, it’s a leash and a collar,

I’m gasping for air while you’re chasing a dollar.

The walls keep on talking, they know every scream,

The ghost of the kid that I once used to be.

Keep the room, keep the silence and debt,

The one thing you’ll lose is a son you’ll regret.

Chorus

Mom, why you acting so crazy?

Vision of the future getting hazy.

No phone for a thousand days,

Trapped in all your twisted ways.

I am sixteen years old,

Still doing exactly what I am told.

Stuck on the wall, wait for the fall,

Stuck on the wall, watch it all fall.

Outro

Two years is a lifetime,

Counting down the clock time.

Staring at the plaster,

Walking toward disaster.

Shut your mouth for once,

Just shut your mouth, I’m done.

Done with the wall,

Done with it all.

Peace out, Mom.