3 am in Toronto - the boy

Yeah...

Turn the headphones up a little bit.

Can you hear that?

It's like... 3:14 AM and my phone hasn't lit up in hours.

Which is crazy, 'cause it used to never stop.

Look...

Verse 1

I'm staring at a ceiling that I picked out in the daytime

Now it's pitch black and I'm replaying every baseline

Of conversations that we had when we were golden

Before the ice got thick and all the doors were closing.

You're sleeping quiet in a city that I bought for us

I'm sitting downstairs, burning bridges, counting losses.

They say "Congratulations" when they see me on the charts

They don't see the vacancy inside the damn apartment.

I scroll your pictures just to see if you still look the same

You cropped me out the frame and left your middle name.

Classic move.

Chorus

And it's 3 AM in Toronto

Drinking things I said I wouldn't go and touch

Missin' people that I probably missed too much

Yeah, I built a castle just to lock myself inside

Now I'm looking at the water wondering why I try.

Tell me why...

Yeah, tell me why it hurts so bad to win.

Verse 2

I got my mother calling checking if I'm eating right

I tell her "Yeah, I'm good" and turn the FaceTime off at night

I'm sick of lying to the people that raised me

The money piling up is only going crazy

And I'm the villain in the stories that you tell your friends

While I'm the one who sits here wishing that we'd start again.

I see you out, you look right through me like a ghost

Funny how the ones you love can hurt you most.

You got a new life, yeah I saw it on the 'Gram

You look happy with him. God, I miss who I am.

Chorus

And it's 3 AM in Toronto

Drinking things I said I wouldn't go and touch

Missin' people that I probably missed too much

Yeah, I built a castle just to lock myself inside

Now I'm looking at the water wondering why I try.

Outro

(Beat strips away, just a lonely Rhodes piano chord looping)

Just a text.

Even a "Leave me alone" would be something, you know?

Instead of just... this quiet.

Yeah.

Put the lights out.

I'm done.