What its done

Hook

Cold nights, I just sit with my thoughts and me

Heart heavy, like it’s weighing down properly

I tried praying but it feels like it’s not for me

Now I’m lost in the past and what it’s done to me

Verse 1

I was young when I first saw the world get cold

Where the streets raise you quick and you grow too old

Had dreams but they faded for chasing notes

Now I’m stuck with the things that I can’t let go

I remember my mum tryna guide my ways

Saying “son don’t get lost in them darker days”

But I drifted, I didn’t really hear that pain

Now I carry her words but it’s far too late

First time that I made that money flip

I felt proud, like I finally meant something, it’s

Crazy how that feeling don’t ever stick

Now I’m empty, still chasing what doesn’t give

And I wish I could go back and change those nights

When I chose that road, when I made those strides

‘Cause every little step led me here in life

Where I don’t even recognise what’s inside

Hook

Cold nights, I just sit with my thoughts and me

Heart heavy, like it’s weighing down properly

I tried praying but it feels like it’s not for me

Now I’m lost in the past and what it’s done to me

Verse 2

I seen friends disappear, I still say their names

Some are gone, some are locked, it’s a different pain

We was laughing as kids, now it’s not the same

All them memories feel like they’ve been erased

I was chasing respect, tryna prove I’m strong

But I lost who I was just to get along

Now I sit with the truth that I’ve done it wrong

And it’s hard when the guilt’s been there all along

Mum still calls and I hear that shake

In her voice when she asks if I’m doing okay

And I lie every time just to ease that weight

But it breaks me inside ‘cause I know it’s fake

I don’t talk ‘bout the things that I keep inside

All the hurt, all the shame that I try to hide

But it follows me round, it don’t ever slide

It just sits in my chest like it’s part of life

Hook

Cold nights, I just sit with my thoughts and me

Heart heavy, like it’s weighing down properly

I tried praying but it feels like it’s not for me

Now I’m lost in the past and what it’s done to me

Verse 3

Now I’m here tryna figure what I became

All the choices I made and the things I changed

If I’m honest, I don’t even know my name

Just a version of me that I couldn’t save

I been searching for peace but it feels so far

Like it’s something you see but you can’t quite grasp

Every time that I try, I just fall right back

Into all of the things that I thought I passed

Still I sit and I think maybe there’s a way

Even though I feel lost nearly every day

Maybe facing the truth is the price I pay

For the chance just to heal from the mess I made

So I’m holding on, even if it’s weak

To a part of myself that I barely see

Hoping one day I’ll find who I’m meant to be

And make peace with the past that’s ahead of me

Hook

Cold nights, I just sit with my thoughts and me

Heart heavy, like it’s weighing down properly

I tried praying but it feels like it’s not for me

Now I’m lost in the past and what it’s done to me