Twice in One Lifetime

Verse 1

Picnic bench in a three car garage

Party lights dimmin and the night got large

Locked eyes across the room and I knew right then

Forbidden and forever where it all began

We were young and reckless with our separate roads

You had your battles and I carried my loads

Twenty-somethin strangers on a two lane climb

I saw your face in the rearview a hundred times

Pre-Chorus

Years went by like water through my hands

Two daughters raised and your son understand

It weren't the right time but we kept the spark

Then the timing clicked in the dark

Chorus

And I loved you twice in one lifetime

First as a ghost then as my wife

We built a fresh thing out of old scars

Two broken people countin lucky stars

Verse 2

Adults by then and the wedding was quick

Dress was white and my hands did the trick

Everything was beautiful and fresh and true

I helped raise your son and he called me Dad too

The grass was green and the house felt new

Every morning felt like we pulled through

The plates were full and the wine was shared

I thought we finally got somewhere

Pre-Chorus

Then a plateau where the good times stalled

The shine wore thin and the cracks were tall

Livin together wasn't livin no more

Survival and suicide at the same front door

Chorus

And I loved you twice in one lifetime

First as a ghost then as my wife

We built a fresh thing out of old scars

Two broken people countin lucky stars

Verse 3

The lies crept in like frost on the glass

Cheating whispers while the good times passed

Addiction lit a match to the frame

And I gave up where you never gave up the same

Back when I was fucked up early and often

You stayed by my side when my mind went soft and

Now the roles done flipped and I walked out the door

Left you standin like I never done before

Bridge

Now my fifties turned to sixties slow

Vodka in my fist and nowhere to go

Second guesses pile up on the floor

I pray to a God I ignored before

Verse 4

My daughters grew up with me gone too

I wasn't there when they needed me through

I pray my kin don't do what I did

Or end up abandoned like my wife did

Your son he calls but the calls got thin

After your momma slipped from us within

Conversations fade like smoke in the air

Never the same and none of us there

Outro

I loved you twice in one lifetime

Once as a ghost and once at midnight

Now I'm just a man with a bottle and a prayer

Hopin somewhere you might still care