For Bella

intro

Bella...

remember when i'd send you lyrics

and you'd tell me to stop sending them

and actually make a song?

you wouldn't let that shit go

yeah...

verse 1

Bella, i still remember those nights

sending you lyrics that i never thought i'd use

and you'd come right back asking

"so when you making this one too?"

i told you "soon" so many times

you kept asking anyway

you'd been on my ass for a whole damn month

like "bro, just make the song already"

and then i finally started making them

you actually got to hear those first few

you heard me figuring it all out

before i even knew what i was trying to do

i wish i could send you one tonight

just to see what you'd say

i can already picture you asking

when the next one is dropping anyway

pre-chorus

you were there at the beginning

before any of this felt real

you heard the words before the music

and somehow made me wanna build

chorus

i promised you i'd stay happy

but i'm failing at it lately

i know you'd tell me not to blame me

but i still feel like i'm letting you down

you heard me when i started

you were there for those first songs

now i've got so much to tell you

and you're the one i can't call

verse 2

Bella, so much has happened since then

i wish i could sit down and catch you up

tell you about every song i've written

and everything i've fucked up

i found somebody that i really love

you would've had so much to say

i would've told you all about her

then you'd probably tease me for days

i'm still trying to get somewhere

still trying to make this music mean something

and every time i finish something new

part of me thinks you'd wanna hear it

because you were always asking for another

back when i barely had a handful

now i could send you song after song

and you'd finally have too many to keep up with

bridge

and that's the part that hurts the most

you actually heard me before you left

you heard those first songs i made

you knew how badly i wanted this

so Bella, if you could hear me now

i'd tell you that you were right

i should've listened sooner

but you got me started before you said goodbye

final chorus

i promised you i'd stay happy

i'm sorry i'm struggling lately

i know you'd tell me not to blame me

you'd probably tell me to keep creating

you heard me when i started

so i hope you'd hear me now

i'm still making all these songs

i just wish i could send them out

i promised you i'd keep going

even when i don't know how

so i'm keeping that promise, Bella

i just wish you were here right now

outro

you'd probably be asking

"when's the next one?"

...

so this one's for you