someone you survived ~ sc

Verse 1

I deleted all the pictures But I still know what you wore The night you said you'd never leave me Like you'd said it all before

And I wonder if you noticed That I haven't been the same Since I turned your little contact Into someone else's name

I still check my notifications Like you're going to change your mind It's embarrassing, I know it But I do it every time

Pre-Chorus

And I wish I could forget The way you used to say my name I wish that I could hate you It would make this feel less strange

Chorus

I still look for you In everything I do In songs I used to send you In the things I wanted to do

And I know you tell them stories Where I'm someone you survived But I wonder if you miss me When you're lying there at night

I blocked you so you'd leave me But I didn't want goodbye I just wanted you to love me Without having to ask why

Verse 2

I heard you say I hurt you In ways you can't explain And I wanted to correct you But I couldn't play that game

So I'll let you have the ending I'll let you have the friends I'll let you make me someone You don't have to understand

But there's a part of me that's angry And a part that still believes That somewhere underneath it all You were happy next to me

Pre-Chorus

And I hate that I remember Every little thing you said When the person that I fell for Is someone I can't get back

Chorus

I still look for you In everything I do In songs I used to send you In the things I wanted to do

And I know you tell them stories Where I'm someone you survived But I wonder if you miss me When you're lying there at night

I blocked you so you'd leave me But I didn't want goodbye I just wanted you to love me Without having to ask why

Bridge

Maybe in another lifetime We don't hurt each other this way Maybe you still call me baby Maybe I still get to stay

Maybe I don't feel so stupid For believing all your words Maybe I don't have to wonder If you ever really hurt

And I wish I could go back To the girl who didn't know That the person she was falling for Would become someone she'd let go

I hope you don't forget me. I hope you don't remember me wrong.

Chorus

I still look for you Though I know I'm not supposed to I still have a thousand things That I wish I could have told you

And you can tell them I'm the reason That you don't believe in love But I know how much I gave you And I know it wasn't enough

I blocked you so you'd leave me But I cried when I pressed goodbye Funny how I saved myself And still feel like I lost my life

Outro

I hope somebody loves you In all the ways I couldn't make you see

And I hope one day I stop Looking for you In everything.