Not The Devil

Verse 1

Dirt

Underneath my nails

Washed it off with cheap tequila

Failed

I failed her

I failed him

And god knows I failed myself

Empty bottles line the porch like soldiers

Heavy head

Heavy heart

Heavy habits that I just cannot quit

Chorus

I am not the devil you think that I am

I am not the devil you think that I am

I fuck up

I fall down

I lose my grip and shit gets out of hand

But I am not the devil you think that I am

I am not the devil you think that I am

Post-Chorus

No I'm not

No I'm not

I'm just a mess

Verse 2

Stained

The carpet in the hall

Blood or wine I really can't remember

Shame

Such a bitter taste

Burning through my throat like summer

Rain

Washing out the garden

The weeds took over

Tangled roots and thorns and broken glass

I'm sorry

I'm stupid

I'm just a human being bleeding out

Chorus

I am not the devil you think that I am

I am not the devil you think that I am

I fuck up

I fall down

I lose my grip and shit gets out of hand

But I am not the devil you think that I am

I am not the devil you think that I am

Post-Chorus

No I'm not

No I'm not

I'm just a mess

Bridge

Look at me

Really look at me

Do you see a monster

Or do you see a mirror

I didn't mean to burn the house down

I just wanted to feel the warmth

I just wanted to feel the heat

I just wanted to feel alive

Chorus

I am not the devil you think that I am

I am not the devil you think that I am

I fuck up

I fall down

I lose my grip and shit gets out of hand

But I am not the devil you think that I am

I am not the devil you think that I am

Outro

Just a woman

Trying

failing

Shit gets out of hand

But I'm not the devil

No I'm not the devil

Not today

Not ever

No

I'm not