How do l say l'm not oky

Verse 1

Wrote a note when the moon was high

Paper scraps scattered across the tile floor by morning

Hiding wreckage underneath my frame

Losing a quiet battle nobody ever saw

Pre-Chorus

Asking why it hurts to just exist

Asking why my chest is tight and thick

Asking if I'm on a list

Chorus

How do I say I am not okay

When "I am fine" is a cage

Holding on to a dark shade

Waking up to do it again

Doing it again

Breaking into parts

Holding on with a failing heart

I do not know how to stay

Verse 2

Mama called to ask about my meals

I lied through my teeth then sobbed until the sunrise

Dad wants strength from a hollow shell

Feeling alone in a house that I still call home

Pre-Chorus

Asking why it hurts to just exist

Asking why my chest is tight and thick

Asking if I'm on a list

Chorus

How do I say I am not okay

When "I am fine" is a cage

Holding on to a dark shade

Waking up to do it again

Doing it again

Breaking into parts

Holding on with a failing heart

I do not know how to stay

Bridge

I stood on the edge of the ledge

Waiting for the silence to find me

Maybe I would fade

Maybe the plants would wither

Maybe the rent goes unpaid

I am not just sad

I am lost

I am lost

Chorus

How do I say I am not okay

When "I am fine" is a cage

Holding on to a dark shade

Waking up to do it again

Doing it again

Breaking into parts

Holding on with a failing heart

I do not know how to stay