Milestones

I been thinking 'bout me, I been thinking 'bout he and him

Every day I'm thinking 'bout who I wanna be, who I wanna become

Never thought I'd be trans, never thought I could be a guy

Just playing pretend in a game in private, hiding online

Tried using Cole, but it didn't suit my lines

So my sister's got the scissors, we’re crossing the lines

Gotta tell a little lie when I walk through the door

Yeah, we’re telling him I begged for it, screaming on the floor

And the dye was supposed to be a lighter shade of pink...

Let him bitch, let him whine, let him stare at the floor!

When I walk back home through the front door!

I’m hitting milestones, cutting the ties

I don't need permission to look in his eyes

Yeah, I skip the old lines, I just wanna be a Miles!

Never made me cry, never broke me down in tears

I just carried around the weight for all these years

Don't want the boobs, don't want the hair long

But it didn't kill me till my mom said it wrong

She wants it cute, she wants it pretty

While my brain is screaming in a whole 'nother city

She doesn't even know, neither does my dad

But it makes me so angry, it makes me so mad

Sometimes I wanna fucking punch right through the drywall

'Cause they're looking at a girl who isn't there at all

First I thought I’m fluid, then I tried out all pronouns

Spinning in circles while the room is spinning upside down

What’s it like to be a guy? Maybe that’s the real me?

Nah, no "maybe"—pack a bag and hit the highway

If there's no acceptance here, I'm already long gone

I’ll have ran, I’ll be trans, out into the neon dawn!

Let him bitch, let him whine, let him stare at the floor!

When I walk back home through the front door!

I’m hitting milestones, cutting the ties

I don't need permission to look in his eyes

Yeah, I skip the old lines, I just wanna be a Miles!