Cold In Summer (Vargas Lyrics Challenge)

[Intro]

Yeah...

I don't even recognize myself anymore

Maybe I lost something

Trying so hard not to lose you

[Verse 1]

Last Friday night got me fucked up

Sipping Hennessy, filling the cup

Got me thinking I gave way too much

Got me wondering if I'm asking too much

Starting to lose touch with my reality

Nothing feels like it used to be

Don't even know what's left of me

Losing control of my own sanity

Nothing feels real to me anymore

You don't feel the same to me anymore

You won't even look me in my eyes

I see the cold truth in your blue eyes

[Pre-Chorus]

And I've been talking to the ceiling

Trying to find a reason why

Every answer that I'm needing

Feels like another fucking lie

I keep searching for the person

That I used to recognize

But every time I face the mirror

There's somebody else's eyes

[Chorus]

It's getting cold in summer, warm in winter

Burning it all down like a sinner

Buried me too deep, I can't crawl out

Trapped in a place where I can't walk out

Where were you when I called you out?

Where were you when I screamed your name out?

I was drowning underneath your shadow

While you watched me slowly fade out

[Verse 2]

I built a home inside your silence

Brick by brick, I called it love

Every wall became a prison

Every prayer was not enough

I kept forgiving what was breaking

Kept pretending I was fine

While pieces of me disappeared

Between the spaces of your lies

I memorized the sound of footsteps

Just to know when you'd come home

Learned to sleep beside somebody

And still feel completely alone

I gave you all my best intentions

You gave me reasons to doubt

I kept trying to save forever

While forever was checking out

[Pre-Chorus 2]

And I don't know when I stopped fighting

Or when I stopped feeling alive

Maybe somewhere in the middle

I forgot how to survive

I kept reaching through the darkness

For a hand that wasn't there

I mistook your absence for distance

You simply didn't care

[Chorus 2]

Now the walls are closing slowly

And the air is getting thin

Every promise that you gave me

Feels like poison on my skin

I kept waiting for a rescue

From a love that wasn't there

But the only thing you left me

Was the weight of your despair

I'm still calling through the silence

But your voice is nowhere near

I was fighting for a future

While you disappeared in fear

You turned every light to darkness

You made loneliness feel safe

Now I'm standing in the wreckage

Of the life you couldn't save

[Post-Chorus]

Fade out...

Fade out...

How did I become somebody

I don't even know now?

Fade out...

Fade out...

You took everything I gave you

But you couldn't take me down

[Bridge]

If I vanished from your memory

Would you even notice I'm gone?

If the echoes stopped calling your name

Would you finally hear my song?

I spent so long searching for you

That I forgot where I began

I gave you every version of me

Just to make you understand

But you never heard me screaming

You never saw me bleed

You only loved the parts of me

That gave you what you need

So let the whole damn house collapse

Let the photographs turn black

Let the memories burn to ashes

I'm not carrying them back

[Breakdown]

I called your name—

You didn't answer.

I gave you everything—

You gave me silence.

I lost myself—

Inside your shadow.

But I'm still here.

I'm still breathing.

[Final Chorus]

I'm walking through the ashes barefoot

With the smoke still in my lungs

Every chain you wrapped around me

Is coming loose, one by one

You buried me beneath your silence

But I learned to hear my heart

Now the pieces you abandoned

Are becoming who I am

I won't beg you for forgiveness

I won't wait beside your door

You can keep the empty promises

I don't need them anymore

You left me alone inside the fire

But I found a way to rise

And the cold you left inside me

Won't control me all my life

[Outro]

Nothing feels real like it did before

But maybe that's what I'm searching for

Not the person I was when I loved you

Not the person you wanted me to be

Just someone standing in the ruins

Finally learning how to breathe

And if the cold comes back in summer

I'll remember what it means

I survived the winter

You left inside me.

And I'm still here.

I'm still here.

I'm still here.