Hard to Understand

Verse 1

All I ever wanted

Was to wake up as someone else.

There's a thousand dreams inside my head,

But they never leave the shelf.

I keep reaching for tomorrow,

But tomorrow never comes.

Every step I try to take

Feels like walking with broken lungs.

Pre-Chorus

I smile because I have to,

Not because I'm okay.

And I don't know how much longer

I can keep pretending this way.

Chorus

I'm different... and I'm alone.

I've forgotten what it feels like to belong.

What is joy?

What is happiness?

I've been searching for them all along.

This weight keeps crushing every part of me,

It grows heavier every day.

But I won't hand it to somebody else...

'Cause I know they'd break the same.

Verse 2

There's a war inside my silence

That nobody ever sees.

Every "I'm okay" I whisper

Brings me closer to my knees.

I don't wanna be a burden,

I don't wanna make them cry.

So I'll carry all these pieces

Even if they cut me every night.

Bridge

If you looked behind my smile,

Would you finally understand?

I'm not asking you to fix me...

Just don't let go of my hand.

Final Chorus

All I ever wanted

Was to be somebody new.

Someone who could laugh without pretending,

Someone who could make it through.

I'm different... and I'm alone.

Maybe that's all I'll ever be.

So I'll hide this aching heart inside...

Until there's nothing left of me.