I Am The Monster

[Instrumental Intro] [Verse 1] Fingers bloodied from the grip

Replaying the tape in my head

Said I didn't mean it

But meaning doesn't change the dead

I watched you fall in slow motion

Hands out but I couldn't reach

Now I'm pacing in this basement

Trying to unlearn what I teach

[Chorus] I am the monster

In the mirror's cracked reflection

I am the monster

Bred from my own selection

[Drop] I am the monster

I am the monster

[Verse 2] Thought I was the hero

In every story that I wrote

But the ink was always poison

And the page was just a throat

I built this cage with good intentions

Spent years pretending I was clean

But the bars are my own bones now

And the lock is my routine

[Chorus] I am the monster

In the mirror's cracked reflection

I am the monster

Bred from my own selection

[Bridge] Breathe in the guilt

Breathe out the lie

Same face I've worn

Different eyes

[Breakdown] I didn't mean for it to happen

I didn't mean for it to happen

I didn't mean

I didn't mean

I didn't mean

[Chorus] I am the

[Verse 3] I scrub my hands until they crack

Like Pilate in a cheap motel

Every apology's a trapdoor

Every sorry is a cell

I trace the outline of the thing

That wore my face and pulled the wire

Was it hunger was it habit

Was I always this on fire

[Chorus] I am the monster

I ran from my own shadow

I am the monster

The seed I chose to swallow

[Post-Chorus] Monster

Monster

I am

I am

[Bridge] Rotate the guilt on a spindle

Spin it slow till it's thread

Weave it into the curtains

Pull them over my head

[Breakdown] Didn't mean for it to happen

Didn't mean for it to happen

Mean it

Mean it

Mean it

Mean it now

[Guitar Solo] [Verse 4] I rearranged the furniture

To make the crime look like a choice

But the stain beneath the carpet

Still has my mother's voice

She said boy you're gonna carry this

Like water in your chest

And every time you open up

It floods the ones you love the best

[Final Chorus] I am the monster

I know what I am now

I am the monster

And I won't look away now

[Outro] I won't look away

I won't look away

I see it

I see it

I see me