Drowning in My Thoughts

I been drownin' in my thoughts, can't swim,

Poppin' pills just to feel like him—

The version of me that you loved, not this mess,

Now I'm starin' at the ceiling in my own distress.

I fucked up again, yeah, I know I did,

Texted your phone like a little-ass kid.

Shoulda moved on, but I can't, I'm stuck,

And my heart keeps beggin' like, "Girl, what the fuck?"

I'm still sippin' on pain, still thinkin' 'bout you,

Still tryna outrun the shit we been through.

Still hear your voice when I'm fucked up late,

Still hate myself, yeah, I still tempt fate.

I'm still...

Too lost to be saved, too numb to pretend,

Still fucked up, baby, I'm fucked up again.

She told me, "Let go," I ain't know how,

Now I'm high as the moon, talkin' to clouds.

You were my light when the world got dark,

Now I'm rollin' solo with a cold-ass heart.

Fuck love, that shit's a game,

But I still wear your fuckin hoodie through the rain.

Talk tough, but I'm weak as fuck inside,

I laugh like I'm good, but I'm barely alive.

I'm still sippin' on pain, still thinkin' 'bout you,

Still tryna outrun the shit we been through.

Still hear your voice when I'm fucked up late,

Still hate myself, yeah, I still tempt fate.

I'm still...

Too lost to be saved, too numb to pretend,

Still fucked up, baby i don't know what to say I guess i'm just I'm fucked up again.

Tattooed your name on my mistakes,

All this silence, all these breaks—

Still can't breathe, still can't eat,

Still got your song on repeat.

If I said I'm fine, I'd be lyin' to everyone again,

Still stuck in a loop, still missin' feelings and my friend.

And there ain't no fix, ain't no fuckin' cleanse,

Just me and my demons, dancin' again.