Safer in the Shadow

Verse 1

Fingers tracing glass on a phone screen

Blue light bleeding through the dark room

Always doing wrong, feeling half-clean

Drained out from the noise and the routine

The doctor gave a name, gave a pill bottle

Said it's all in the chemistry inside the throttle

Tried the therapy, sat in five different chairs

Staring at the floor while they measured all my cares.

Chorus

No mom, I won't tell you what's going on

Another day breaks and I'm already gone

Every move I make feels like a mistake

How much more of this can a mind take?

You say just pray, say I gotta be patient

I've been holding on in this isolation

Trying to get better like it's up to me

But I don't think I'll ever be free.

Verse 2

Scrolling through the feed till the feed gets blurred

Looking for a sign in a single word

Talking to myself cause the walls won't speak

Every single month just running too weak

Used to get the calls asking where I've been

Why I never fit, why I wouldn't let them in

Now I just stay quiet, keep the volume low

It's safer in the shadow than letting you know.

Chorus

No mom, I won't tell you what's going on

Another day breaks and I'm already gone

Every move I make feels like a mistake

How much more of this can a mind take?

You say just pray, say I gotta be patient

I've been holding on in this isolation

Trying to get better like it's up to me

But I don't think I'll ever be free.

Outro

Just static on the line

Not doing fine

Not getting better anyway

Just turning off the screen today

No mom...

I won't say a thing.