'Til I Find Myself Again

[Verse 1]

Smoke climbs the whiskey in a low lit room

Your letters sit there like a colder grave

You loved me in the morning then you changed by noon

Left me kneeling for a ghost I couldn't save

Your hands were soft but your anger wore a blade

You'd praise me to the ceiling then you'd cut me to the floor

I learned to walk on silence just to keep the peace we made

And paid for every heartbeat I could never afford

[Pre-Chorus]

And I let you in

Just to bleed me out again

[Chorus]

And the storm went through my chest

'Til I forgot my own name

I tried so hard to give you rest

But you only fed the flame

Now the ashes know my years

And I'm standing in the rain

'Til I find myself again

[Post-Chorus]

Oh I

I'm gonna rise again

[Verse 2]

You called my tenderness a weakness you could break

Then wondered why my whole world came undone

You took the honest parts of me and left the heart to ache

A prisoner of a war you'd already won

But something in the wreckage taught my bones to bend

A little softer grown inside the hurt

I don't need your love to tell me who I am again

I just need to stitch the wounds and learn my worth

[Pre-Chorus]

So I let you go

And I watched the darkness grow

[Chorus]

And the storm went through my chest

'Til I forgot my own name

I tried so hard to give you rest

But you only fed the flame

Now the ashes know my years

And I'm standing in the rain

'Til I find myself again

[Post-Chorus]

Oh I

I'm gonna rise again

[Guitar Solo]

[Bridge]

And I still flinch when somebody says my name too kind

But I'm not the boy you buried in the tremble of your voice

I'm learning how to trust the good that I can find

And I'm ready now to make my own clean choice

[Chorus]

And the storm went through my chest

'Til I forgot my own name

I tried so hard to give you rest

But you only fed the flame

Now the ashes know my years

And I'm standing in the rain

'Til I find myself again

[Outro]

I'm gonna find myself

I'm gonna find myself

And love again