Verse 1
Mama's gone again con otro
Papi's on the other side con su nueva vida
I'm here with abuela counting rosaries
She prays for me like I'm already gone
Pre-Chorus
Y nadie ve
Nobody sees
The girl underneath
The girl underneath
Chorus
Quiero ser alguien que quieran
Someone they'd finally choose
Pero soy solo esta sombra
Too soft to break the rules
Abuela says be brave mija
But brave just makes me bruise
Paso de largo mi vida
Watching my own life move
Verse 2
School gets heavier cada día
The lockers smell like everyone's secrets
Boys come and go like la marea
And every one of them leaves me bleeding
Pre-Chorus
Tengo trece
Almost fourteen
Counting the cracks
In the ceiling
Chorus
Quiero ser alguien que quieran
Someone they'd finally choose
Pero soy solo esta sombra
Too soft to break the rules
Abuela says be brave mija
But brave just makes me bruise
Paso de largo mi vida
Watching my own life move
Bridge
If I was thinner maybe
If I was prettier maybe
If I was someone else maybe
Someone would stay and see me
Razor blade on the bathroom floor
Counting down like a hymn
Her hands on my shoulders
She doesn't know where I've been
Chorus
Quiero ser alguien que quieran
Someone they'd finally choose
Pero soy solo esta sombra
Too soft to break the rules
Abuela says be brave mija
But brave just makes me bruise
Paso de largo mi vida
Watching my own life move
Outro
Paso de largo mi vida
Paso de largo
Paso de largo mi vida
Paso de largo
Verse 3
Ya no lloro por los nombres
I've lost count of all the scars
Each one was a boy who swore
He'd catch me falling from the stars
Mama's phone keeps ringing off the hook
Papi's text comes once a month
Abuela hums her old cumbia
Pretending I'm still young enough
Pre-Chorus
Cuántas veces
How many times
Did I bleed for them
And they called it fine
Chorus
Quiero ser alguien que quieran
Someone they'd finally choose
Pero soy solo esta sombra
Too soft to break the rules
Abuela says be brave mija
But brave just makes me bruise
Paso de largo mi vida
Watching my own life move
Verse 4
They put me on a white bed
Monitored my shaking hands
Told me that I lost my head
For boys who never understand
Now I'm done being their mercy
Done being their punching bag
If they want a monster mija
Then I'll give them what they had
Pre-Chorus
No soy buena
I'm not the saint
They sewed me up
And left the paint
Chorus
Quiero ser alguien que quieran
Someone they'd finally choose
Pero soy solo esta sombra
Too soft to break the rules
Abuela says be brave mija
But brave just makes me bruise
Paso de largo mi vida
Watching my own life move
Bridge
They wanted my softness
They wanted my tears
They wanted devotion
For all of their years
But love is not something
They taught me to give
Love is a mirror
They broke while they lived
Final Chorus
Now I'll be the villain
The one they deserve
Every cracked smile
Every nerve that they served
They beg me to love them
But never give back
They look at my face
And they don't see the cracks
Outro
Soy la villana (villana, villana)
La que ellos crearon (crearon, crearon)
Abuela forgive me
Pero ya no hay nada
Soy la villana (villana, villana)
La que ellos crearon (crearon, crearon)
Paso de largo mi vida
Paso de largo
Paso de
Verse 5
They taught me to be quiet
So I learned to scream inside
Every saint they built me into
Was a coffin I survived
Now the chapel's getting colder
And the candles burn too low
I got rosary burns on fingers
From counting sins I didn't know
Pre-Chorus
¿Quién soy ahora?
Who am I now
With all their prayers
Weighing me down
Chorus
Soy la villana que quisieron
The monster they designed
Pero abuela still sees mija
The one they left behind
No más lágrimas en la sombra
No más bleeding for the blind
Paso de largo sus mentiras
This time I make them mine
Verse 6
Mama calls me on a Tuesday
Says she misses her little girl
Papi sends me birthday money
Doesn't know I burned this world
School hallways feel like prison cells
But I'm the warden now
I walk the line where angels fell
And I don't bow down
Pre-Chorus
Ya no tiemblo
I don't shake
Every scar
Is a crown I take
Chorus
Soy la villana que quisieron
The monster they designed
Pero abuela still sees mija
The one they left behind
No más lágrimas en la sombra
No más bleeding for the blind
Paso de largo sus mentiras
This time I make them mine
Bridge
Abuela says mija don't lose your light
But a broken mirror still reflects the night
She holds my face with her wrinkled hands
Sees through the monster to who I am
She sings her cumbia soft and low
Waltzing with ghosts of long ago
And for one second I'm not alone
I'm just her grandchild coming home
Chorus
Quiero ser alguien que quieran
Someone they'd finally choose
Pero abuela's love is enough now
Enough to break the rules
She says be brave mija siempre
Brave doesn't mean abuse
Paso de largo mi pasado
I choose my own life now
Verse 7
I'm not begging for their mercy
I'm not waiting by the door
I'm not starving for their glances
Not bleeding anymore
The black dress hangs in my closet
Bought the day that I turned cold
But abuela's crucifix is heavier
Than the hatred that I hold
Pre-Chorus
Me levanto
I rise up
From the ashes
Of their love
Final Chorus
Voy a ser alguien que quieran
Not for them but for me
Abuela taught me brave means
Standing tall and running free
No more shadows in my mirror
No more cracks for them to see
Paso de largo mi tristeza
I'm done watching life pass me
Outro
Abuela forgive me
For the nights I lost my way
Abuela forgive me
For the things I had to slay
But I'm still your mija
Still the one who prays
Soy la villana y la santa
Pero ya no tengo miedo
Ya no tengo miedo
Ya no lloro
Paso de largo mi vida
Pero esta vez camino
Paso de largo mi vida
Pero esta vez
Yo elijo
Paso de largo mi vida
Paso de largo
Paso de largo mi vida
Soy libre al fin
Paso de largo
Paso de largo
Paso de largo mi vida
Soy libre al fin
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