La Sombra

Verse 1

Mama's gone again con otro

Papi's on the other side con su nueva vida

I'm here with abuela counting rosaries

She prays for me like I'm already gone

Pre-Chorus

Y nadie ve

Nobody sees

The girl underneath

The girl underneath

Chorus

Quiero ser alguien que quieran

Someone they'd finally choose

Pero soy solo esta sombra

Too soft to break the rules

Abuela says be brave mija

But brave just makes me bruise

Paso de largo mi vida

Watching my own life move

Verse 2

School gets heavier cada día

The lockers smell like everyone's secrets

Boys come and go like la marea

And every one of them leaves me bleeding

Pre-Chorus

Tengo trece

Almost fourteen

Counting the cracks

In the ceiling

Chorus

Quiero ser alguien que quieran

Someone they'd finally choose

Pero soy solo esta sombra

Too soft to break the rules

Abuela says be brave mija

But brave just makes me bruise

Paso de largo mi vida

Watching my own life move

Bridge

If I was thinner maybe

If I was prettier maybe

If I was someone else maybe

Someone would stay and see me

Razor blade on the bathroom floor

Counting down like a hymn

Her hands on my shoulders

She doesn't know where I've been

Chorus

Quiero ser alguien que quieran

Someone they'd finally choose

Pero soy solo esta sombra

Too soft to break the rules

Abuela says be brave mija

But brave just makes me bruise

Paso de largo mi vida

Watching my own life move

Outro

Paso de largo mi vida

Paso de largo

Paso de largo mi vida

Paso de largo

Verse 3

Ya no lloro por los nombres

I've lost count of all the scars

Each one was a boy who swore

He'd catch me falling from the stars

Mama's phone keeps ringing off the hook

Papi's text comes once a month

Abuela hums her old cumbia

Pretending I'm still young enough

Pre-Chorus

Cuántas veces

How many times

Did I bleed for them

And they called it fine

Chorus

Quiero ser alguien que quieran

Someone they'd finally choose

Pero soy solo esta sombra

Too soft to break the rules

Abuela says be brave mija

But brave just makes me bruise

Paso de largo mi vida

Watching my own life move

Verse 4

They put me on a white bed

Monitored my shaking hands

Told me that I lost my head

For boys who never understand

Now I'm done being their mercy

Done being their punching bag

If they want a monster mija

Then I'll give them what they had

Pre-Chorus

No soy buena

I'm not the saint

They sewed me up

And left the paint

Chorus

Quiero ser alguien que quieran

Someone they'd finally choose

Pero soy solo esta sombra

Too soft to break the rules

Abuela says be brave mija

But brave just makes me bruise

Paso de largo mi vida

Watching my own life move

Bridge

They wanted my softness

They wanted my tears

They wanted devotion

For all of their years

But love is not something

They taught me to give

Love is a mirror

They broke while they lived

Final Chorus

Now I'll be the villain

The one they deserve

Every cracked smile

Every nerve that they served

They beg me to love them

But never give back

They look at my face

And they don't see the cracks

Outro

Soy la villana (villana, villana)

La que ellos crearon (crearon, crearon)

Abuela forgive me

Pero ya no hay nada

Soy la villana (villana, villana)

La que ellos crearon (crearon, crearon)

Paso de largo mi vida

Paso de largo

Paso de

Verse 5

They taught me to be quiet

So I learned to scream inside

Every saint they built me into

Was a coffin I survived

Now the chapel's getting colder

And the candles burn too low

I got rosary burns on fingers

From counting sins I didn't know

Pre-Chorus

¿Quién soy ahora?

Who am I now

With all their prayers

Weighing me down

Chorus

Soy la villana que quisieron

The monster they designed

Pero abuela still sees mija

The one they left behind

No más lágrimas en la sombra

No más bleeding for the blind

Paso de largo sus mentiras

This time I make them mine

Verse 6

Mama calls me on a Tuesday

Says she misses her little girl

Papi sends me birthday money

Doesn't know I burned this world

School hallways feel like prison cells

But I'm the warden now

I walk the line where angels fell

And I don't bow down

Pre-Chorus

Ya no tiemblo

I don't shake

Every scar

Is a crown I take

Chorus

Soy la villana que quisieron

The monster they designed

Pero abuela still sees mija

The one they left behind

No más lágrimas en la sombra

No más bleeding for the blind

Paso de largo sus mentiras

This time I make them mine

Bridge

Abuela says mija don't lose your light

But a broken mirror still reflects the night

She holds my face with her wrinkled hands

Sees through the monster to who I am

She sings her cumbia soft and low

Waltzing with ghosts of long ago

And for one second I'm not alone

I'm just her grandchild coming home

Chorus

Quiero ser alguien que quieran

Someone they'd finally choose

Pero abuela's love is enough now

Enough to break the rules

She says be brave mija siempre

Brave doesn't mean abuse

Paso de largo mi pasado

I choose my own life now

Verse 7

I'm not begging for their mercy

I'm not waiting by the door

I'm not starving for their glances

Not bleeding anymore

The black dress hangs in my closet

Bought the day that I turned cold

But abuela's crucifix is heavier

Than the hatred that I hold

Pre-Chorus

Me levanto

I rise up

From the ashes

Of their love

Final Chorus

Voy a ser alguien que quieran

Not for them but for me

Abuela taught me brave means

Standing tall and running free

No more shadows in my mirror

No more cracks for them to see

Paso de largo mi tristeza

I'm done watching life pass me

Outro

Abuela forgive me

For the nights I lost my way

Abuela forgive me

For the things I had to slay

But I'm still your mija

Still the one who prays

Soy la villana y la santa

Pero ya no tengo miedo

Ya no tengo miedo

Ya no lloro

Paso de largo mi vida

Pero esta vez camino

Paso de largo mi vida

Pero esta vez

Yo elijo

Paso de largo mi vida

Paso de largo

Paso de largo mi vida

Soy libre al fin

Paso de largo

Paso de largo

Paso de largo mi vida

Soy libre al fin