Not Built for the Damage

Verse 1

It's 4:30 and I'm still awake,

Not by choice, but for my own sake.

Voices crawling through the floor,

Like this house is always at war.

I bite my tongue, I hold it in,

Pretend I don't hear it through my skin.

But silence here is never real,

It's just another thing I feel.

Pre-Chorus

I didn't ask to hear it all,

Every echo down the hall...

Chorus

So just let it break, let it fall apart,

I'm tired of playing the missing part.

Don't drag me into what you won't fix,

I'm sick of living in nights like this.

I'm not the judge, I'm not the blame,

But I still wake up to the same old game.

And I'm done pretending I'm okay,

At 4:30 when the house won't stay away.

Verse 2

I know every tone, every fight they start,

It carves itself straight into my heart.

I hear things I shouldn't understand,

Like I'm stuck here with shaking hands.

And I hate how normal it feels to me,

Like chaos is all I'm meant to see.

But I'm not built for this kind of sound,

Not for a house that never calms down.

Pre-Chorus

I stay quiet, but I'm not gone,

I've been listening too long...

Chorus

So just let it break, let it fall apart,

I'm tired of playing the missing part.

Don't drag me into what you won't fix,

I'm sick of living in nights like this.

I'm not the judge, I'm not the blame,

But I still wake up to the same old game.

And I'm done pretending I'm okay,

At 4:30 when the house won't stay away.

Bridge

I'm not the glue, I'm not the bandage,

I'm not built for this damage.

So let it echo, let it scream,

Just don't make it part of me.

Final Chorus

So just let it break, let it fall apart,

I'm done being stuck at the center mark.

No more listening through the walls,

No more catching every fall.

I'm not the judge, I'm not the blame,

But I won't live inside this flame.

And I'm finally saying what I won't delay—

It shouldn't feel like this every day.

Outro

4:30...

And I want out of this noise.