I Hate I Still Care

I hate that I still care when you don't even notice

I gave you all my love, you just left me feeling hopeless

After everything I did, after everything you put me through

I wish I could stop loving someone who never loved me like I do

Verse 1

I hate that I still think about you when I'm laying in my bed

Got a thousand different memories that keep running through my head

I gave you all the pieces of a heart that you would break

Put your happiness before mine, even when I couldn't take it

I was there when you were hurting, I was there when you would cry

I kept swallowing my feelings just to keep you satisfied

I forgave you for the things that I could never understand

Gave you chances after chances, kept on reaching for your hand

Pre-Chorus

And the worst part is I miss you, even knowing what you did

I keep wishing for the person that I thought you really were

I hate that I still care when you don't deserve a place

In a heart that you kept breaking while I tried to keep you safe

Why do I still check my phone when I know you won't reply?

Why do I still miss your voice when you were the reason I cried?

I gave you everything I had, you gave me reasons to regret

And somehow you're still the person that I can't seem to forget

Chorus

I hate that I still care, I hate that I still love you

Hate that after everything, I still put nothing above you

I gave you all I had, you gave me all this pain

And I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't do it all again

I hate that I still miss you, hate that I still feel this way

Hate that I still wish you'd call me at the end of every day

You broke the heart that would've done anything for you

And I hate that after everything, I still care about you

Verse 2

I remember all the nights I stayed awake to make you smile

I was fighting for forever, you were giving up the while

I kept trying to fix the problems that I never even made

You kept treating me like nothing while I begged for you to stay

I sacrificed my happiness just so that you could have yours

Kept on knocking on your heart while you kept closing every door

I was loving you through everything, the good and all the bad

Now I'm sitting with these memories of everything we had

Pre-Chorus

And I hate myself for missing all the moments that we shared

'Cause when I needed you the most, it felt like you were never there

I could list a hundred reasons why I should just let you go

But my heart keeps holding on to someone I don't even know

You don't understand the damage that your absence left behind

I'm pretending that I'm better, but I'm struggling inside

I wish I could erase you, every picture, every text

'Cause the hardest part of healing is still caring what's next

Chorus

I hate that I still care, I hate that I still love you

Hate that after everything, I still put nothing above you

I gave you all I had, you gave me all this pain

And I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't do it all again

I hate that I still miss you, hate that I still feel this way

Hate that I still wish you'd call me at the end of every day

You broke the heart that would've done anything for you

And I hate that after everything, I still care about you

Bridge

Maybe someday I won't look for you in every face

Maybe someday all these memories will finally fade away

Maybe I'll understand why I kept giving you my best

To someone who could watch me hurt and never care about the rest

I don't hate the way I loved you, I just hate what it became

I hate that I still miss you when you're the one who caused the pain

Chorus

I hate that I still care, even after all the damage

I gave you something real, but you treated it like it was nothing

I would've stayed forever, would've fought through every storm

But you made me feel so lonely when I was the one who kept you warm

I hate that I still love you, but I'm learning to let go

There's so many things I wish that I could tell you, but you'll never know

You had someone who would've given you the world, it's true

And I hate that after everything, I still wish it could've been you

Outro

I hate that I still care

I still care about you

Still wish it could've been you

It's true