Thirteen Dreams

Verse 1

White lights

Blurry faces lean in close

Heavy blankets hold me tight

I scream

Small hands reaching for the air

First breath burning in my chest

Then they laugh

Then they cry

Tears of joy on every cheek

One year gone

Messy crayons on the wall

Scribbled circles

Jagged lines

They say it is art

They say I am smart

At five I finally stand up

First words

Wobbly knees

Everything starts to break

Downhill fast

Everything starts to break

Chorus

Years of unholy pain

Stored away

Deep inside where it stays

Years of unholy pain

Years of unholy pain

It lingers in the shadow

It lingers in the dark

Years of unholy pain

Post-Chorus

Stored away

Stored away

Gone but never gone

Verse 2

Six

The front door slammed shut

Dad chased a new life

New girl

No warning

No letter

Two years later Mom found him

The stepfather

The stranger

I hate him

He stays

He is just there

A shadow in the hallway

Now Dad is back with gifts

Plastic peace

Shiny things

I do not trust the box

I do not trust the smile

I do not trust his eyes

Something bad is coming

Ticking clock

Something bad is coming

Chorus

Years of unholy pain

Stored away

Deep inside where it stays

Years of unholy pain

Years of unholy pain

It lingers in the shadow

It lingers in the dark

Years of unholy pain

Post-Chorus

Stored away

Stored away

Gone but never gone

Bridge

Turning thirteen

Counting down the minutes

Change my world

Change my life

Change my name

Let one dream catch fire

Let one prayer fly higher

I am waiting

I am watching

I am wishing

Verse 3

Thirteen

Fate can have the wheel

Stir the pot

Sing the song

Make me famous

Make me real

I refuse to be a shell

I refuse to be a ghost

I refuse to be a machine

Mindless thing in walking skin

I want to leave a mark

I want to feel a spark

Before the end

Before I go

My soul needs a reason

My soul needs a home

Worth living

Worth breathing

Worth everything

Chorus

Years of unholy pain

Stored away

Deep inside where it stays

Years of unholy pain

Years of unholy pain

It lingers in the shadow

It lingers in the dark

Years of unholy pain

Outro

Stored away

Stored away

Let me be something

More than the pain

More than the skin

Let me be something

Anything

Something