Perkys Don't Heal

Intro – Soft, emotional vocals

Yeah...

I swear I'm tired of feeling everything...

I got so much pain that I don't know where to put it.

And everybody thinks I'm doing fine...

But they don't know what's going on inside.

I been fighting battles that nobody knows about...

Yeah...

Chorus – Melodic, emotional

I've been taking perkys just to numb the pain,

Tryna wash away the memories inside my brain,

Ever since you left, nothing's ever been the same,

I'm smiling in the daylight, but at night I feel the rain.

I don't wanna feel, I don't wanna cry,

Got a thousand different demons living deep inside,

I keep looking for a way to leave this pain behind,

But no matter what I take, I can't escape my mind.

And these pills don't heal, they just hide what's real,

Got a broken heart that I don't know how to heal,

I keep saying I'm okay, but that's not how I feel,

I'm just tryna find a way to forget what I feel.

Verse 1 – Faster flow

I remember all them nights when you told me that you'd stay,

Now I'm staring at the ceiling, tryna make it through the day,

Got some memories I'm holding that I wish would fade away,

And I hate the fact I loved you when you threw it all away.

I gave you everything, you gave me reasons to regret,

Got a thousand things to say that I ain't told nobody yet,

I keep drowning in emotions, got me feeling disconnected,

Every promise that you made is just another thing I question.

I've been running from my problems, but they follow where I go,

Got a heart that's turning colder, got a pain I never show,

Everybody says I'm changing, they don't know what I've been through,

I was fighting all my battles while I was busy loving you.

And I hate that I still miss you, even after what you did,

Sometimes I wish that I could go back to the way that I once lived,

Before the nights got longer, before I lost my happiness,

Before I started hiding all my pain behind a cigarette.

Pre-Chorus – Quiet vocals

And I don't wanna feel this anymore...

I don't wanna wake up hurting like before...

I keep searching for a place where I belong...

But I've been feeling lost for way too long...

Chorus – More aggressive vocals

I've been taking perkys just to numb the pain,

Tryna wash away the memories inside my brain,

Ever since you left, nothing's ever been the same,

I'm smiling in the daylight, but at night I feel the rain.

I don't wanna feel, I don't wanna cry,

Got a thousand different demons living deep inside,

I keep looking for a way to leave this pain behind,

But no matter what I take, I can't escape my mind.

Verse 2 – Deep, emotional storytelling

I got problems with my past that I don't talk about,

Got some things inside my head I wish I could drown out,

I tell everybody I'm okay, but I'm breaking down,

I'm surrounded by a thousand people, still alone in crowds.

I lost people that I loved, I lost pieces of myself,

Put my feelings in a box and left them sitting on a shelf,

I don't even recognize the person looking back at me,

It's like everybody sees a different person than I see.

And I've been fighting every night just to make it to the morning,

Got a heart full of regrets and a mind that's always storming,

I keep wishing I could sleep without the memories returning,

Every scar became a lesson, but I'm tired of all this learning.

I thought the pills would make the hurting disappear,

Thought that I could find some peace if I could silence all my fears,

But the truth is when it's over, everything is still here,

And I'm still that same kid who's been fighting back the tears.

Bridge – Almost crying, slowed vocals

I'm tired of feeling empty.

I don't know why the people that I love keep leaving.

I don't know why my heart keeps breaking into pieces.

I don't wanna lose myself trying to forget,

I don't wanna wake up with another regret,

I'm just looking for the happiness I haven't found yet,

And I'm scared that I'm becoming someone I won't recognize.

Final Chorus – Powerful vocals with harmonies

I've been taking perkys just to numb the pain,

But the memories keep coming, driving me insane,

I don't wanna feel, but I wanna be alive,

I just wanna find the person that I was before the lies,

I just wanna feel some peace when I close my eyes,

I'm so tired of pretending that I'm doing fine.

Outro – Soft vocals, fading away

Maybe one day I'll be okay...

Maybe one day this pain will fade...

Maybe one day I'll forgive myself...

For all the nights I couldn't save myself.

I don't need another pill to tell me I'm okay...

Yeah...

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